Ger.

到不了的幸福

2010-08-23T22:03:00.001+08:00

電話那一頭的你說也許我們該各退一步
電話這一邊的我眼淚悄悄流出卻不想哭

這場愛情是不是一開始就是錯誤
為了甚麼我們固執的堅持換來卻只有痛苦

跌跌撞撞這一條愛情路
我們看得到的只有荒蕪
辛辛苦苦跟隨你的腳步
等待我們的不是幸福

"可能这就是我所感觉到的"

傻瓜

2010-08-23T14:45:00.002+08:00

在爱情的世界里，
就算是再聪明，
再理性的人也会变成傻瓜。

当感情出了摩擦，
逃避不一定是解决的方法，
但起码把伤害减到了最低。

一个人的喜怒哀乐，
有时是无形，无理的，
但只要用心去感受，去明白，
会很有效的消除那份莫名的感受。

沟通是人与人之间的一座桥梁，
当那座桥梁已失去它原有的意义，
无论是感情，友情，甚至爱情，
已不复存在。

objection

2010-06-25T01:05:00.003+08:00

Phew~
Thought they gonna kill me :(

Hmm.
Today morning went to meet li he and make hair.
Dye hair :X
HOHO.
wonder miss tan gonna kill me if she see this :X

But anyway,
after it.
went to nyp find kh and have lunch tgt w mh :D:D
So sweet of him to wait for me until 2.30 then have lunch tgt :D
HEH! :D

After it.
Went to shop with mh at tamp until 6+
then go back nyp find him.

and heed back my hse to have dinner :X

Kx's bdae

2010-06-24T01:41:00.002+08:00

19th June - Saturday
Went to celebrate li he's bdae.
vivo - sushi tei - sentosa - vivo - meet kh at hg mall - home

20th June - Sunday
Went out w yunheng and minghong.
city link - asian kitchen - marina square's starbucks - kbox - kw's hse
*tiring day..*

21th June - Monday
Went to school for xsite.
Shopping at bishan - kx's bdae celebration at marina square's suki yaki

22nd June - Tuesday
slacked at home whole afternoon.
Went to have ba kut tea dinner at hg area with kh.

23rd June - Wednesday
slacked at home whole afternoon too.
Meet kh at serangoon mrt - kfc - ice skating - karate kid - rush home.

Ctf

2010-06-18T22:47:00.001+08:00

Congrates!

A fake enjoyment over a true happy event.

JIAYOU CTF

2010-06-16T21:53:00.002+08:00

Jiayou! :D

eyes infection.

2010-06-09T19:29:00.001+08:00

Eyes infection.

sixty years.

2010-06-06T16:12:00.002+08:00

我也要拥有我门的60年回忆!

difference

2010-06-02T16:11:00.000+08:00

I don't understand.
Why is there such a big difference.
Putting in the same effort, but the results back is like heaven and hell.
WHY?.
Maybe.
Yeah...
...
...
MY FAULT ):

two words.

2010-05-31T13:10:00.000+08:00

Two words to sum up my life : 失败!

Pixar & Prince of Persia

2010-05-29T00:22:00.001+08:00

Lolols.
Blogging for 28th may - yesterday.
Hmm.
Vesak day!.
Went to science center to see pixar w meh n yl. :D
Hoho!
OMG.
The things there are imba larh.
3D modelling, digital arts, etc.
The whole trip i was there stunning about their detailed drawing/painting.
"How can they do such a detailed picture.! :X"
Can't imagine i ever manage to do that.
Spent like 1.5hrs observing all the artwork.

After it.
Had dinner at northpoint then watch Prince of Persia!.
Wow.
The show is really WOW.
Love it lots.
Rate 9.5/10 :D:D
It had alot of great meaning in it. (:
Do watch if have time :D
Heh!

mummy's bdae!

2010-05-27T23:27:00.004+08:00

:D:D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! (:

Today went to celebrate my mummy's bdae with kh and my bro at the thomson road prata shop.
The food there arh..
not bad leh, quite nice. :D
but~
Umm.
too bad arh..
i had my fish burger before it, if not i'm gonna spam the food there. :D

So after having dinner,
I managed to persuade all of them to go walkwalk.
Partly because i need to walk to digest.. :x
Too full to even sit down :X
So we ended up at cp.
mummy and kor went to hello shop,
then kh and me ended in timezone-

Lols.
I didnt know he's more hiong than me if he even step in arcade larh.
OMG.
we like spent money like water
now pocket had a big hole. ):
Thenthen.
we managed to get the Jackpot.
Hahas.
Won the toy, what rilakkuma - Marilyn's favourite toy!
and ALOT OF SWEETS~ -.-
Hohoho!

Haha.
Then we went to bought a couple ring
Erm...
But because too late le, the shop is closing..
so didnt had time to engrave it.
But okay larh.
Sure will have time other day (:

Hmm..
Come to think about it.
Lolols.
Seems like everything is planned so well larh.
All special days seems to crash with my parents' birthday :x
I wonder~~~
Will any other special days crashed on his parents' bdae?
Heh. :P

The end~

psd.

2010-05-27T01:49:00.005+08:00

Hoho!
FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY!
All the quizes end !
Phew~! :D
Don't care good or bad, it's over~~~

NOW its time to play with my PSD.
Heh! :D

This is a simple one, only use picture and texture. :x

This is a short one, plainly use brush settle :x

OMG. This is a TEDIOUS one.
I think i spent like hours on it larh.
Just to make the milky effect. -.-
Abit lame. but i find it not bad leh. :D

From the bottom of my broken heart.

2010-05-20T10:52:00.001+08:00

From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart Lyrics
Artist(Band):Britney Spears

"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go?

And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know, still I miss you somehow

[CHORUS:]
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

"Baby," I said, "please stay.
Give our love a chance for one more day"
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about

But you put a dart
Through my dreams through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end

[Repeat CHORUS]

You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear
Still I wish you were here

[Repeat CHORUS]

"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?

rachel.

2010-05-19T16:45:00.006+08:00

Sick these days.
Nothing to do at home.
So play with photoshop a little.
Trying to test all their features.

blogskin

2010-05-15T19:52:00.003+08:00

Heh!
Changed blogskin.
First time i editting my own blogskin wor. :/
Can't believe i still remember CSS :D:D

Nothing much to post eh.
But.
Someone is bugging me to post something here.
So i shall see him tall and post more crap.

Hmm.
This semester.
Two word - Super Stress.
Proj, core module, elective all imba deh.
Can kill many braincells deh :x

Everyday like thinking.
"Tomorrow got tutorial or not? Got test or not?"
><"
Hais.

Still.
Can't afford to just give up like that right.
I know.
Sure there's people gonna say..
"Rachel arh Rachel. How can you give up so easily?!."
Let's guess who is/are the people. :P

That's it.

15th May.

2010-05-15T16:49:00.005+08:00

will these come true?.

祝福
关怀
时间

30th march

2010-03-30T01:07:00.003+08:00

heh!
days passed v fast.
not like toot - toot train, but like speed train. :D

so.
nowadays chionging fmo planning. innovateIT competition. and my religion planning.
time very packed .
but
I LIKED IT.

at least it made me feels im doing something.
and not nothing ><

hais. left 3 weeks to sch reopen le.
abit sian leh.
lazy to go :x

sometimes, things are not meant to be said.
just kept it in your heart.
soon it will be over (:

accompanies

2010-03-11T01:53:00.002+08:00

THANK YOU VERY MUCH TO ALL!

18 years.
range from all the major to minor issues that happened.

all the companies you all gave me.
despite its white lies,
which is meant for my own good.
supports or motivations
which makes me have more confidence and faith in myself.
or even jokes
that makes my day a pleasant one.

all the efforts you all gave,
meants alot to me.
THANKS.

advices.

2010-03-11T01:35:00.004+08:00

THANK YOU VERY MUCH.!

managed to clear some doubts yesterday.
and finally,
i realised alot of things.

18 years of life.
i wonder my insenstiveness have done how many harms to people.
some, i dont know at all till now.
some, i know but i took a very long time to realised it.

i know that's one of my major weakness or imperfection.
and i gonna heed your advices.
be sensitive. :X
review it before i do things.
consider others' perspective before i say something

neither do i wish to hurt anyone unintentionally due to my insensitivity.
but by hook or by crook,
im just gonna take all the advices into heart.

friendships.

2010-03-06T23:12:00.002+08:00

如果我说,对我而言,友情是无价的, 你会相信吗?

当眼泪流下来的那一刻,我已经清楚知道你的答案了.
曾几何时,我竟然在你的眼中已变成了,一个爱慕虚荣的人.
我知道不论我解释多少次,伤害已经在我不知情的状况下造成了.

可能打从你认识我开始,在你眼里,我早已经是一个把成绩当作一切的人,
所以无论现在我解释多少遍,已改变不了你的想法,
但我诚心的希望,你能回想起我们这一路来所培养的友情,
想想,我真的是你所认为的那种人吗?
只因为我在无意中所说的话,就抹煞了我们这几个月来的友情?

在过去的几个小时里面,
我反反复复回想了多少遍,
我不知道原来我无意间说的话,
在你眼里,是一个那么大的伤害,
而对你而言,我竟然是那种人,
因为连我自己都很难想象自己是一个多么坏的人.
但我希望你能相信我,因为我是多么的在乎你这个朋友.

EXAMS OVER

2010-03-05T01:25:00.002+08:00

wahs!.
super long nv post anything ler.
so try not to make it so died.
i shall revive it with some stuffs :D
haha!.

EXAMS ARE OVER!
woots!.
but i think this sem. my gpa sure sucks! ):
but its okay. as long as its over!.
hoho!

hmm..
so now i only left with 5 weeks of holidays. as 1 is meant for scja training.
the remaining arh..
I WANT TO WORK!
omg. ><
no money lerhh ..
time to go find find jobs le :D
but jobs like v hard to find leh.

holiday plannns~~
1) UBI!. u wait for me.! if tmr im not going CCK. i will be there!
2) $250 ): hmm.. see how ><
3) YALUR ! omg. due to exam, i nv tag, the business like cold ttm. now must revive it too le !
4) intense training ): =.= i wonder how will it be. haha

YALUR

2010-01-11T03:59:00.003+08:00

lolols.
so late still havent sleep.
blog hopping to do advertisement for YALUR :x
heh!
want earn money is like that de huh? :X

ANYWAY.
PEOPLE WHO VIEW MY BLOG.
PLEASE SUPPORT MY BLOG SHOP.
http://yalur.blogspot.com/
THANKS! (:

Bdae presents (:

2010-01-06T08:38:00.001+08:00

'Blacklisted' Name lists :
Qiaoyi
Lihe
Marilyn
Yongliang
Kairong
Cassie
Aishah
June
Joanna
Zhenqing
Royson
Minghong
QinYing
Kiangsiang
KiatHan
Lynette
Kianhan
Weihao
WanEng
Andrea
My family and relatives :D

Hehe! (:
Guess what~~~~
For the above 'blacklisted' name list, BIG BIG & MANY MANY THANKS TO U ALL :D

Birthday presents from
Friends (:
[ps. nv include urban wear and photo frame due to environmental error :x]

18!!

2010-01-03T00:09:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR &
MY 18th BIRTHDAY!

Birthday wish:
1) ________
2) ________
3) ________

*Fill in the blanks yourselves :P*

RP trip

2009-12-24T19:11:00.016+08:00

Heh!
HoHoHo~~~!
Left a few more hrs to Christmas day lor (:

So!
Today is the 24th - Christmas eve.
ButBut still need go school in the morning to have a lunch buffet. "sad ): "
But actually the buffet is to thanks all the pple who helped out for the IS workshop.
And the food there actually not bad lahhs. Better than those previous one :x

After which.
Guess where mehmeh n I went to?..
It's RP! (:
We went there cause most of the leisure park are closed due to the bad weather.
w/o saying so much.
Here comes all the pictures we took there (:

Here is the rp's main entrance. So big lahhs!
But on the journey there, i miss Nyp alot lorh :x
Cause the journey from woodland mrt to there super far lahh! :x
Lucky we follow a guy. Heh! He really lead us alot :x
Duno he knows ma.

Below are pictures of the pathway from the main entrance

hehe! then we followed the guy to 7-11 buy drinks.

their school's map :X

See!. their library so big and new!. omg larh. :X
the most impt of all : they have more chairs than us !! :(

Hmm. we explore halfway. duno why the guy went missing.
and that's where we start our RP adventure hunt.
hehe!.
then we found out smth.
they have alot of place that looks like study room lor.

See their lockers so new and modern :(

hehe!. their sports complex. (:

wahs!. their escalator longer than us :X

this is the thing we saw when we first got inside.
at first idk what it is. thought it's just some art or smth. until take picture then know it's a earth made up of painted bottles. so nice :D

last. i took a picture of mehmeh as an evidence that we came to RP :D
[forgot to take mine, nt i dunwan :X]

so after going to RP. super tired. their school so far and so big larhh.. then we went to causeway point slack.
first. we went to popular. i bought 2 books. next time i will share one post of the book derhhs. but must after i'd read it :x
After going popular. we went to swensens - i had pasta,mehmeh had her hawaiian pizza. then we share a gold rush. :D

hmm.. den since it's xmas eve. we decided that we must exchange gift. so i set a 30mins gift time. we are supposed to to buy each other xmas gift in 30mins. haha!.
she bought a watch for me.
see! :)

heh!. nice right? then i bought for her a sony ericsson memory card reader :D
since she last time said she wants one.

so after all this trip and everything.
FINALLY~~~!!
HOME SWEET HOME :D

what a tiring xmas eve ! hahas :D

sem2 term1.

2009-12-23T03:33:00.003+08:00

hurray~!!
SO LONG NO BLOG!!
MY BLOG IS DEAD ): .

ehhhhh~~~
its like not something i shld happy about hor? :X

hmm.
so!
one term over!.
but but :X
duno why leh.
this sem seems so weird.
i feel very "nua" this sem leh.
super slack compared to last sem.
last sem all like very chiong.
html. different test almost every week.

but but.
this sem.
seems....
ehhh.. not say no test at all larh.
but its definitely nt as stressful as last sem.

okay.
dun say hw le lar.
jus mention this :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL DECEMBER'S BABIES :D
AND MERRY XMAS . HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL :D

HOHO~~
for those who duno.
*hint hint*
remember to view my profile before you leave.
there's something u nid to rmb to do next month :D
hehe!. (:

~~~~after posting the above one~~~~

hmm..
so now im still vc with one small little naughty girl.
and after being said by her to post more ):
here i am.
trying to post more about what i'd done today.

so.
today was a .. a.. boring day?
camp at home whole day?
but of cos not doing nothing la.
i was...
ehhh.. trying to do smth out of the blue.

and there i was.
watching x-family AGAIN =.="
cos nothing better to watch le.

then duno how come.
my randomness + curiousness.
i went to search for 东陵 at youtube.
which end up.
i research for the whole china history (共和国) for around 5-6hrs.
i came back with conclusions of 5 main character during that period of time.
孙中山,蒋介石,袁世凯,李莲英,孙殿英
these 5 people.
3 of them were very famous people during that time. until now.
but .
there's many background stories behind.
especially sun zhong san!

): i at first tot he's a very nice person leh.
since so many people tot he's so great.
but but.
my own opinion seems to say its not.
due to ehhh.. some info/facts i came across.

dunwan to say much here.
anything can ask me abt them.
i now super pro in these 5 pple history :x
heh!

that's all bah!.
i think long enough le.~~

sms + changes.

2009-11-08T19:59:00.002+08:00

days nver blog lerh.
its like so dead larhh.

hmm.
so ytd i went to CAMP EAGLES.
ehhhh...
how should i say it.
if i have to rate it from a range of
very not fun - not fun - normal - fun - very fun.
i think my answer most prob will be between the part of not fun - normal.

although i cant deny that the facilitators put in alot of efforts in making the camp fun by having all sorts of different activities.
and there's nothing wrong with that.
but the only thing that makes it not fun is the lectures :X
hahas.

and FOR ONCE.
i received his sms again.
AGAIN =.="
i duno what he wants now.
practically no idea.
i'd been seeing him online almost every day.
as if he's very free like that.
yet.
he didn't even talk to me for the past few weeks?.
now a sms came.
plus.
its a hilarious one.
asking me whether i want to go club nxt thurs.
i was like =.="
really .
i tink some of my friends would had noticed my expressions changed and everything.

okay.
i had to admit.
he still indeed has the power to change my mood for things.
so i called qiaoyi.

i think she must be thinking i'm mad or what.
after so long to her..
which is so short to me..
i still cant forget the things abt him.
even though the ring is gone.
the mark is disappearing.
but the memories still stays in my mind.

so ..
same advices she gave.
asking me not to think much.
bla bla bla.
but the fact is that.
i cant just stop tinking after seeing the sms.
haix.

and.
at that point of time.
i truthfully didnt get the idea what's his mind is thinking.
until like 5mins after.
i rmb why he mean thursday..
cos friday was 13th nov.
yeah.
the 1 year.
the day i met him.
and.
i think he chose 12th. got 2 reasons bahs.
or either one of it.
1st. he got camp on friday. so he's only free time is thurday.
2nd. he maybe want to celebrate until 12am, which is the 13th.

but whatever his mind is thinking,
he would have known i wont go to club =.="
idk whether is it cos he'd forgotten my character .
or cause i'd change to become more guai cos last time i did mention to him i wanted to go club.
but thats was a joke or whatsoever.
idk.

hais.
words piercing through my heart over and over again.
idk what to do with him.
but maybe.
there should really be an end between me n him...

10days to 1 year

2009-11-03T13:16:00.002+08:00

不知为何。
今天突然有点想他。

事过尽月，
所有的事还历历在目。
还差10天就是我和他认识的1年周年庆 >X

我不知道这是不是一种依恋。
但为何我的脑筋还把事情记得那么清楚?
我不知。
咳...

school loads coming in.

2009-10-25T01:42:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL LOADS COMING IN JUST AT THE FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL~~~!!
hais.
pathetic sia.
after 1mth of rest/no rest holiday.
im back to school again.

but.
in one week time.
it truly bring me back to the hell.
cmaths hw. - 52qns.
ethics law essays.
com skills project.
java project.
java extra practice.
and the basic tut homeworks ..........

dots~~~..
hais.
plus now im broke.
cant even manage to buy a crypto book :(
so PATHETIC! :(

but whatever it is.
live still goes on :X

PUO CHAN

2009-10-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAYS OVER!!~~
I'M BROKE!!~~

BROKE && SIAN

2009-10-16T00:54:00.002+08:00

ONE WORD : BOREDDDD~~~~!!!

hais.
today im so bored~!!
so lifeless ~ :X

went out whole day w my cousins today :X
go to parkway first for dental appt.
OMGOSHH ):
i feel super sad larrhh.
last visit my dentist say this visit can take out lerr..
but .
but !
he today say.
cos gap havent close fully yet.
now have to wait longer!
sobs sobs ):
cheat my feelings! !
AHHHS !!

then went to parkway there de timezone played DDR and Pump it up!
HMMM.
DDR got new dancing mat ler leh!
like more professional.
cos the screen is bigger.
then the dance mat is more new than the old one.
but but.
i somehow dun like it leh.
like very weird in someway or somehow ):

after which.
we had dinner at amk hub cos they wanna watch soreity and the row or what de later :X.
at first i'd rejected of watching.
but end up they found out its M18.
then changed to 500days of summer.
so me and sx tagged along lor.

duno who say nice der. :X
the whole movie was boring to me :X
cos all the way is talking abt how is this guy - TOM going to get over this girl - SUMMER in 500 days but end up he realised its fate that they two broke up and found another new girl named AUTUMN =.="

so.
im not surprised if they have another 500 days of AUTUMN and a new girl named WINTER come out =.="
hais.
sian-ing in process~~
bored bored bored ):

distinction list (:

2009-10-13T04:00:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!.
its already 4am.
and im not sleeping yet :X

hahas.
not cos i dunwan to sleep.
but i jus cant get myself into dreams.

hmm.
but . but.
i was super happy now!.
hahas.
the 4 words meant so much to me !!
thanks to lulu and mehmeh.~~

WO AI SI NI MEN LERR~~!!
if dunhaave u two help.
i really cant imagine the 4 words appearing on the page.
"ni men de da en da de.
xiao nu zi mo chi nan wang :X "

hmm.
4more hours till the actual thing out.
cant wait any longer. :X

BUNK ~

2009-10-12T17:17:00.005+08:00

lolols!.
guess where i m now (:
OMG~~!!
BUNK~!! :X

hmm.
cant imagine i will come back here again :X
but yeah.
the reason i come back here not cos of audi ):
its cos of FACEBOOK :<

haha!

today was suppose to go kbox with qiaoyi de :X
but end up.
dilly dally till the klunch time is over.
so..
bobian .
go sho teppan have our lunch :D
thanks to weiming~
we had alot of special orders (:
i had unagi yaki udon (:
and qiaoyi had her beef tenderloin + wagyu beef..
hahas!.
omg.
save alot of money sia.
if i really ordered the real dish.

so now at bunk- facebooking and msning (:
hehes!

chiong work now.

2009-09-30T11:29:00.005+08:00

hmm.
so long nv post liao.
lolols!.

was chionging work for the past few days.
whole week everyday work i tink?
lolols.
for the first time i find myself like superwoman :X

sun, mon, tues ~ 11-10.
wed went out w qiaoyi, her two friends, li he.
hmm.
went to watch the ugly truth again :X
omg!
COLLLIINNNN~~~~!!!!
he so shuai lar..
for the sunglass and sport car scene (:

* so shuai ~~~ *

hmm.
but this time i really went to look at the storyline .
SOBS ):
the mike so sad larrr..
especially the hotel scene.
its like.
he's pushing away abby, the girl he love to another guy cos he thought that he will lose out to collin's criteria in the girl checklist when actually he was so good larr..

hais.
but watever it is.
this show ends well (:
hahas!.
love it lots!~~

and.
ytd was my last day of work at sho teppan ):
sobs!! ):
i will really miss them lots de.
the kitchen crew - elvis, yi shen, wee ming, min nam oo, ivy, the two dishwasher that i didnt manage to catch their names after days of being tgt.
staff - ahqing, jinglian,jason, wilson, jiawei, guixin, jiahao, aileen.
cashier - betsy.
and last but not least QIAOYI~~!!!
haix.
quitting this job is like cutting one more link lines between us when our school reopen.
if not we both have to travel so far to meet up each other nxt time .
haix.
but I BELIEVE our link lines will not end here yea? =D

hmm. shall end here now.
if not yl gonna kill me soon (:.

html test

2009-09-29T22:37:00.002+08:00

haix.
duno why.
after seeing the school bookshop saying need to buy next sem book on 16-18oct.
i suddenly feel that time seems to go off very fast these day.
left a few more weeks.
2 weeks?
to school reopen again.

somehow.
i dunwan school to reopen leh.
wo hai mei you wan gou.
jiu yao go back suffer lerhh :X
wo bu yao~~~~!!
haix.

plus.
tmr will be my html supp paper ler.
omg.
super worried now.
i really very scared i will last min blank out at there due to the stress level it brought me.
but whatever it is.
i will try my best to do well de :x

zhilie's ppt.

2009-09-27T22:24:00.002+08:00

OMG!~
i'd just finished reading a piece of LIES just now.
but this time.
it was a "LOVE" lie.

speaking the truth.
if u didnt know what was happening btw them all the while.
just plainly reading those lies.
u can really .
i mean really.
thought it was true. and might cry.
just like wat i almost did.
almost cry if he continue a few more lies. and of cos. provided i didnt see the last one.

now.
frustrated with this thing.
i dun understand.
why guys tends to sweet talk .
saying mussy words when they dont even mean it at all?
but of cos.
if i use my logical thinking mindset.
i do thought of.
all these sweettalk and mussy words.
are just like food.
we girls are just like starving or rather silly rabbits.
so when they put the food in front of us.
either we are silly enough to eat it.
and. end up got ditch cos its actually a trap.
and we just gonna blame ourselves for being stupid.
yeah?

but whatever it is.
why cant they just mean the words they said?
since they not gonna mean it.
then dun say it.
just like my normal lines.
if u dun think u gonna make it.
dont go for it.
hais!

sometimes i wonder.
why was girls always the victims for such a lie?
why didnt those unfaithful guys got their retribution?
but if i gonna turn it around and think it logically.
indeed.
there's true that there are a few guys complaining around that how their gf/ex dump them.
when they treat them like princess.
but in actual fact.
why not everyone go on and reflect ourselves.
are we really as good as wat we think we are?
if we are.
what's really the cause of all this break up?
singapore was considered one of the highest divorce rates.
was it really cause we are that bad?
or just we ourselves keep thinking we are the one who's right.
where the opposite partner was the cause of these breakups?

crap and nonsensical.
phew~~
breathing in and out continuously~

卫公兵法

2009-09-26T18:43:00.002+08:00

军中有贤能而不能用者败；
上下不相亲而各谈己长者败；
赏罚不当而兵士多怨者败；
知而不敢击，不知而击之者败；
地利不得，而卒多战阨者败；
劳逸无别，不晓车骑之用者败；
觇候不审而轻敌懈怠者败；
行于险道，而不知深沟绝间者败；
阵无选锋，而奇正不分者败。

结论: 非天之殃，将之过也

reflections and results

2009-09-23T23:20:00.004+08:00

REFLECTIONS ~
two things i'd reflected over the days.

first.
its one incident that i'd felt guilty all along.
i didnt mean to say those words.
but i'd to admit that sometimes my words are straight-forward and harsh till the i'd UNINTENTIONALLY twisted the real meaning i'm trying to portray.
so.
now.
we're different from the past.
i'm SO SO SORRY for the things i'd said to them that i tink they told you about it.
but just hope that you let bygones be bygones .

second.
cause of my stubborness, that lead you have a bad impression of her.
but in fact.
its my fault.
and i'm also SORRY for the harsh tone when i talk to you that day.
i will promise try not to do it again.

okays.
finished my reflection.
now.
time to burst out my thinkings.

I DONT UNDERSTAND THE NEED TO LIE ~!
okays!
first of all.
whats the point of hiding?!
frankly larh.
if u so scared people know it.
then dun say it.
but not fake it.
its really pissed people off.
and i know you might be behind mocking people who are so silly to believe your nonsense.
but yeah.
time for people you'd lied to , to be clever enough to learn their lesson ler.
as thanks to you.
you proven that this is a realistic world.
so .
time to let people around you be as realistic as you.

now.
left the last thing to post and vent it out.
its about my results.
okays.
today nyp and sp both got back results.
i got gpa 3.59 [ but its not fixed due to some issue ]
most likely will got lower after they add in another module .
so.
truthfully.
i'm happy with my results.
cause i at first REALLY THOUGHT my cmaths will fail and my jap those will get very low grades.so will end up get 2.7 or below that kinda.
then go bet with mehmeh.
now lost to her $2.
but somehow.
there's people that find my results are bad. [ i will work harder next time ]
some find that my results are good. [ thanks ]
but either way.
think like wat someone said to me.
be myself more impt .
so.
whatever it is.
at least i tried my best and i don't lie about my own feelings.
and the misunderstanding about grades comparison are unintentional so i apologies.
SORRY.
but whatever it is.
bear in mind.
at least i'd be truthful to myself.

underwater world + genting + class chalet

2009-09-19T20:25:00.006+08:00

hmm.
few days didnt post.
but many things happen :X

first is bdae celebration.
10th of sept is yl bdae..
and as his friend.
of cus marilyn and i cant heck care lahs.
so after some planning.
we booked him on 9th sept.
and bring him to a place he nv been before :X
hehes =P
which is underwater water world + dolphin lagoon.

and omg!.
the dolphin there super kawaii larhs.
after it.
we played 2 times of luge.
WOOHOO~!
super fun!
must go there again next time :X
*provided i got money ; evil laugh *

second is genting trip.
erm.
people say genting is kinda like casino and theme park place for teenager to relax.
but seems to me like.
for adults to enjoy casino.
for me to enjoy baby sitting.
why did i say it leh?~
cos most of the time .
im baby-sitting my baby cousin :X
but ..
still got play abit larr..
and.
i realised something.
next time go there.
must really bring more $$ 0.o
the things there are super ex.
hehes :X

third is the class chalet on 14 & 15 sept.
but most imptly.
i must thanks to chapman & Co for helping us out in buying the bbq food.
joanna who took pictures for the chalet.
edward and other people who put in the effort in making this chalet possible and fun.
and of cos.
the people who put in their effort in turning up for the chalet (:

furthermore.
it was REALLY a fun chalet for me.
at least i enjoyed alot during the bbq, cycling, celebration and gambling part :X
hahas!.
jialing~!!
i bet this must be your most "shy - shy " bdae celebration ever!
* evil laugh *

so..
after so many things.
finally can rest up awhile .
and.
OMG.
next wed getting back results!~ =/
hais.
pray hard again.
but think this time.
i must prepare to off my phone before that day and hide in a corner to see my results.
sobs!~ =X

packed day.

2009-09-08T00:55:00.002+08:00

so today was a packed day.
went out with qiaoyi,sengwee,junyi to orchard, cineleisure, ps, cathay.
hahas!
do the normal stuff.
eat. slack. chat. play !

wahhs!.
so long nv chat with qiaoyi lerrs.
seems like many things to talk about also :X

but whatever is it.
i now super pekchek.
i dun understand why parents always have the thinking of staying out late is rebellious or bad child..

in their mindset its like.
they WANT their children to be that kinda.
guai guai xiao hai.
after school . straight away go home . eat dinner or lunch if possible with them. and sleep at 11pm..
but the practical thing they should or must accept is that.
NOW.
statistic shows that.
teenagers are not so guai to do the above things.
and its not because they are bad.
or want to hang out with friends who will lead them astray.
its because they already lack of time for themselves.
just for example.
morning.
school from 9-6pm.
imagine.
30mins for dinner.
remainder to eg. 10pm home.
only left 3.5 hrs.
and nid another 30mins home from whatever place.
left 3 hrs.
nid to talk or do some other stuff like shopping to relax rite?!
would it be enough?

so why cant they just be more understanding enough to accept the fact that.
we just wanted to have more time to chat/relax ourselves.
furthermore.
if staying over at one other person place is not allowed.
but if they stay over is ok.
what kinda logic is that.
when if all the parents think that way.
all the teenagers dunnid to stay over at friend's house to chat le lor?!
cos all are forbidden.
illogical and crap logic..
frustrated~!
fuming with anger~!.
hu xi~~
hu xi~~
really nid time to cool down myself.

holidays planning!

2009-09-06T22:13:00.003+08:00

hahas!.
finally officially start of holiday!
so what's my holiday planning?!
hehes ~ =x

got lots of things in mind wor !
but after hearing some pple advice.
i'd planned to do all my desire holiday wishes one step at a time =x
hahas!.

planning list~

~~wss training.~~
tennis.
swimming.
working.
running.
skating.
~~class chalet.~~
xinmin chalet.
~~cycling.~~
drums
DDR.
~~genting.~~
sewing.

hahas!.
so many things to do in one month!.
must really start on my daily planning le (:
hehes.

holidays!

2009-09-04T00:59:00.002+08:00

yipees~~
exams overs!
finally can relax ! (:
although im the only one who is partially ended ><
but whatever it is.
woohoo~~

hahas!.
now just nid to pray all my modules didnt failed me by their grades.
so..
hmm..
holiday planning now~.
omg.
still got wss to go.
haix.
maybe i tink things to easy le bahs ><
tot software can slack.
end up.
whats the diff !~
occupy all my holidays!.

hehes.
but still better than school bahs.
free time le (:
hehes!

confrontation

2009-08-26T23:53:00.004+08:00

hmm..
seems like the last time i blogged was a few days before le. x/

okayys..
so yesterday.
cmaths exams.
omg.
screwed up again x/
but since its over.
i dun wished to talk much abt it.
jus hoping for a retest or moderation now ~ =x

anyway.
heard something farcical, ludicrous yesterday.
i cant believe there's someone in this earth managed to act as though he is verryy reasonable when he is soooo ridiculous.
and
since the person had a habit of being harsh.
i shall also behave the same way.
so that the we are on the same communication channel.

frankly lar.
what's the definition of standing up for someone or as a group/organisation?
for many of people's info.
it actually means..
a group or someone is thinking this way
and you are just the one standing on their/his/her part to help to voice out.
AND NOT
standing in your own views and saying u are on behalf on them,
when it was ONLY YOU thinking that way.

furthermore,
it wasn't fully our responsibility to do the thing you'd said.
yes.
i wouldnt deny that we should present some altruistic for this issue.
BUT
i do remember this is a democratic country.
we do have our own rights on choosing the things we want or wish.
so
it doesn't mean that choosing to be with the people we want,
means that we're picking on anybody.

moreover.
i do recommend you to do some self reflection before you do your part of "standing up".
the attitude changed issue happened far long way before this.
maybe you didn't realise.
just like the chinese idioms said "当局者迷，旁观者请"
you didn't know you are the one that first started it.
but hadnt u been realising.
you said we should stand in other people's shoe before doing some insensitivity things.
but on the other hand.
you are the one who first started not doing the compromisation part.
so.
since you're so benevolent,
you shouldnt had just thought about yourselves of leaving when you know that it was a selfish act.

haix.
more words needed to surpress my anger.
but
i tink i should stop here.
dont wish to make this issue any bigger since you'd already started it.

somethings

2009-08-24T00:53:00.007+08:00

爱情七件事~
1）不吵架
2）不挑对方缺点
3）不可以欺骗
4）不可以乱发脾气
5）不可以每天一次手都没牵
6）不可以嫌对方胖
7）再忙每天都要说一句“我喜欢你”

omg!.
super sweet these lines ~! Y

UP

2009-08-19T01:39:00.002+08:00

hehes. =D
reached home quite long lerr.
but now then can have some peace x/
kena lectured by my mom for the whole past 1hr+ ~ =x

so..
today went to work from 11am -5pm (:
lolols!.
late again x/
hmm..
seems like i'd nv punctual before since the first day i'd start work .
*guilty* =x

but.!
sobs. ):
think cos of me this kinda pple.
then my manager today started to have the clock in clock out system.
hais.
sad liaoo...
next time cant late for work lerr x/

so .
after work.
met up with YL and marilyn outside my restaurant.
lolols larhs!
i didn't know they havent eat yet.
was all the while waiting for me =x
* felt guilty again *
for the first time.
after working for 3 weeks ++,
i'd finally tried sukiyaki and chicken with rice with YL and marilyn (:
hehes.
really nt bad lehhs. =D
有前途 (:

after it.
went to cineleisure watched UP 3D with them.
okayys.!
this time~
Rate for the movie is 5.8/10.
kinda bad compared to the past few. x/
mainly cos this show was kinda draggy bahs.
i wouldnt say its v bad.
the characters are cute .
just that.
very fairytale story type.
which will make me kinda fall asleep at the beginning.
but during the part of them saving the kevin-bird.
it was kinda nice.
so overall.
okayys larr!

after which .
chit chat eat slack finished.
took the last train go home x/
then kena nag cum lecture cum minor reprimanded until now.
hmm..
so..
time for bed!
hehes (:

cries from marilyn

2009-08-13T01:39:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHENQING~~~

PAISEH ZQ..

actually i'd plan to sms u either on yesterday 12am or 11.59pm de.

but somehow or another reason... x/

i'd missed it ):

so sorry.

but still..

hope u'll accept my xin yi =P

hehes (:

so.

today went to school at 2pm.

was thinking of pon the cmaths lesson de.

but i scared miss lee sia =x

later she take attendance.

then the whole class was there except me.

and she asked.

"eh? why rachel not here?"

and my class duno what to answer except the honest one =x

which will make me die till very cham x/

hence;therefore;thus.

I WENT FOR CMATHS LESSON~

but not bad larr.

we managed to have more qns to practice.

she today went through the logic, binary qns.

wahhs.

i see. O.O

all blur.

forgotten everything liao ):

sobs sobs~!

must go revise back the notes le.

but the whole lesson, i wasnt listening to her also.

was copying cassie and jialing's passed lectures note.

hahas!.

at least i'd did something more worthy i guess. =x

then.

after lesson.

went out with yl and marilyn (:

HEHES =P

went to play arcade with them like yesterday.

then went to nebo to catch some bites and movie.

we watched the movie - GI JOE

hmm..

the show arhs...

RATE : 8.8/10

was about actions on saving the earth and some chemical stuff ( duno their names =P )..

really very nice (:

plus watched it with marilyn and yongliang seems fun.

because we wasn't all along very quiet watching.

at least had some conversation when we don't understand x/

hahas!.

doubt its a good thing for other people who sit beside us.

but dun care lars =P

*devil laugh*

play play play~

eat eat eat~

watch watch watch~

everything finished about 11+ lerrshh.

so all rushed back home ASAP before last bus x/

hahas!

anyway.

its a fun day with them. (:

tears

2009-08-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

3 down 4 more to go~!
the above sentence does not mean rating.
it means.
our modules exams/presentations~
hahas!

hmm..
so..
jap,com skills and web app project is finally over.

jap was a tedious one ):
made a few mistake during the test.

com skills arhs..
can say.
i'd no comments.
cos its based on project presentation skills.
and if they grade it as that,
everyone has different perspective mahhs.
so i'd not sure.

last, WEB APP PROJECT~
okayys..
hadn't sleep for 2 days to rush for this project and...
today.
we had our web app project presentation.
one word to describe.
"SCREWED"
nothing works~!!
i duno why.
suddenly my database didn't work.
it worked out perfectly fine before we compile in cassie's de.
but duno why.
when burn into the disc.
just cannot work ):
hais.
nvm.
dun dwell about it le bahs.
i dun wan my grp member to be sad.
we should MOVE ON~
but still.
i must admit.
i'd had alot of fun in this grp.
although our project didn't manage to do well in the end,
the effort we put in is really there.
so thanks lots for it.
LOVE YOU ALL ~! (:

so..
left c maths, web app, ess it n programming essential exams to go.
JIAY00uSS myself~!

kinda pissed

2009-08-07T23:42:00.001+08:00

hmm..
today was like a "filled" day for me.
lessons all the way till 3pm .
then do project in the library with royson's grp and yongliang to 6pm~

WAHHS~
thanks to yong liang alot!
even though he didn't manage to make my login works.
but he managed to do my registration.
OMG~!
a savior to me!
i think if its me doing all these.
sure cannot be done by tomorrow or wat de.
so..
THANKS LOTS~! (:

then..
after it.
went out with fm,ks,qy,kh,mh,rs&vv to amk hub.
watched the movie - overheard.
Hhhhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmm....
the show arhs..
i can say.
its a show i normally won't choose to watch it.
too overwhelming le!
hahas!-
caused its kinda about ..
actions and plot thing.
my brain will get overloaded after watching it.
hahas!
but overall..
not bad larr.
RATE : 7/10
worth watching if u're tat kinda action type.
hahas!

but..
was kinda pissed with the grp of them.
from 6pm "suan" all the way till 9pm..
although its not fully their fault larr.
cause they might take it as a joke only.
yet.
i felt its kinda over the limit of just a prank/joke lor.
SO HOPE THEY BETTER STOP IT.

haix.
nida trouble over my database le. ):
hope can be done bahs!
SO...
JIAY0UUS MYSELF BAHS~! XD

august babies

2009-08-05T00:31:00.004+08:00

HAPPY B'DAE TO ALL THE AUGUST BABIES

edward, zhenqing,jonathan & brian

hmm..

today was a super duper tiring day for me.

yesterday duno why.

had been tossing around my bed for like hours to get me to sleep.

so ..

woke up late today.

almost late for school also x/

anyway..

today the whole class celebrated the august babies bdae.

especially edw.

since tmr is his bdae le.

opps.

its today already.

already passed 12am x/

bought a pandan cake from bangawan solo with marilyn

then celebrated tgt with the class at mos burger-amk hub after school..

yawn~!

super tired now.

eyes closing le.

but trying to perservere on to do my database.

anyway..

after the birthday celebration..

i quickly rushed for work ..

5-10pm~!

Oh gosh.

although i can say it wasnt very tough today as there are quite a few customers only..

but somehow.

im kinda drained out.

like wanna die like tat.

my legs also.

feel like can break off anytime x/

wahhs!!.

kinda buey tahan liao..

think im going to bed now.

since the retest is start at 3pm today.

i think i wake up earlier to do the database bahs.

yawns~!

nights pple!

his words

2009-08-04T01:50:00.003+08:00

after today.
i can really say .
he didn't come to my this blog at all.

according to the past.
most prob or rather..
i can say.
high CHANCE.
cause he forgotten this blog URL..
and.
actually..
i also dun intent to put it in my personal msg.
i just hope he will put in abit more initiative to rmb it and come here..
but guess .
its another shear hope that he cant even do it.

so..
today..
ironically ..
he talked to me a few lines more than the past.
but all these lines.
frankly.
i rather he dont say at all.
cause its more like knife stabbing me than words that comfort me to make me feel better.

AHHs..
i already duno what m i to u.
really DUNNO.
in the past.
i could at least bluff myself to say tat.
maybe there's still some hope between us.
but why time n time again.
u break the tiny little hope im bearing it to happen.

hais.
today,someone told me.
maybe the thing im now holding on is not love/like at all..
its more like "clinging on".
im just trying to cling on him.
and asked me.
"if i stay with him, will i be more sad?"
my answer was..
" if i stay with him, i will be sad. or rather tears all day.
but if without him, i wouldn't be any better, or maybe abit better i guess"
so.. whats the difference?
hais.
perplexed. confused.

and..
over the days..
he's been bugging me days to help him with maple.
i really duno wat to say to him anymore.
cos as most of my friends that know me.
or can say.
i rmb i had mention to him before.
I DON'T PLAY MAPLE.
or rather.
die die also wont touch it.
but why time n time again.
he's bugging me to help him when he knows i wont even touch it.
plus..
i had beeen stressing with my work like mad now.
when he still asking me to help him with games.
i dun understand.
really..
what's his motive of all these?
is he really like some pple told me.
just trying to find topics to talk?
if it is.
why is it this?.
why cant be others?
hais.
blur!

but..
soon..
i guess ..
soon..
it will be more clearly sort out ~

your msg

2009-07-30T23:25:00.002+08:00

hmm..
was supposed to post this yesterday cause of his sms.
but was too busy and got carried away by my project.
so forgotten =x

anyway.
i duno whether you will visit my this blog.
but yeahs.
if you did visit here.
you should like know..
that..
im sick and didn't go for school for this whole week.
so..
tats y i didn't reply your msg.
maybe tat's my hint for you to visit here bahs.
i duno.
but still didn't wish to dao your msg de.

oh ya.
today.
i was like reading through my jap.
duno why.
had a random thought of designing something that is..
~情侣间的独一无二~
and the word that hinder the design is 扣.

so..
i sort of like came up with an idea of designing a couple belt and buckle.
it is not like a pair of belt and buckle where the girl and guy each has one.
it is just one belt that is only compatible when pairing up with the buckle.
something like 独一无二..
and to make it a more couple way.
the buckle should be from the girl.
and the belt should be from the guy.
so when the girl had finally made her mind to be with the guy,
or she wants the guy to fixed him by her side,
she will pass the buckle to him,
to show her love =x
hahas!
yeapps.

and..
why is it that i had this thinking.?
maybe from my experience.
the one that you'd love somehow is always like a belt.
will be surrounding(tieing) around someone but may not be you.
so..
at times.
you will wish to be a buckle that fixed him by your side.
thats why i thought of design it.

but.
hahas!.
this was just my design thoughts.
wouldn't have time to really make it to a design piece bahs.
i already so tied up with my IT works le. =X
just hope i nxt time will have time to design it bahs!
hehes! (:

sick, sms

2009-07-28T23:58:00.001+08:00

haix.
tio quarrantine now.
+ 1 week of mc~

duno its a gd thing or not.
but for now.
i can say it has no difference.
cos i still nid to chiong my project by tmr 7pm =x
hais!.

老天爷啊~
请给我多一点时间好吗？
不然给我一台时光机..

database + faq ~
how to chiong in 1 day time.
hais.
coughing like siao now..
but bobian mahs.
must jiay0uus le~!

yesterday~
i came across this sentence..
一个男人在喜欢的女孩子面前，是没有所谓的没理由的。
after i heard tis sentence,
somehow i think through alot.
did some reflections also...
got many questions to ask u.
but got hold back after the sms this afternoon.

m i really ur boredem toy?
why only when u're bored or nothing to do, then ask abt me?
i didnt reply ur msg.
cos i duno what shld i reply.
tell u what im doing?

sorry to dao ur msg.
i know i shldnt do it.
but.
think tats the only way to hold back my questions
since i already had no way to say anything.

party and ....

2009-07-20T02:44:00.003+08:00

hmm..
now is like 2am + le.
still haven't slp =(
but the reason is not cos i dunwan to slp.
cos of tmr java test.
still stuck at the loops.
i dun understand the while,for and do while loop sia =x
hais.
cant slp w/o figuring out the logic x/
but tink i tmr gonna flung the prac test le.
cause thats nt the only part i didnt get it =x

so..
ytd was like a super tiring day for me..
went for tennis as usual.
but after it.
gathering started~~~
met up with mh and vivian at koufu and had lunch tgt..

then went to grassroots club to play pool..
but cos vivian wore slipper tat day.
we started to go on a plot -> using my shoe.
hahas!.
so.. it goes like this..
i got into the billard place first with my shoe.
then i take it off.
and ks brought it out to vivian.
she wear it to sneak through the security guard.
luckily the shoe size fix nicely.
was worrying it will be too big or wat..
so TA-DA..
its done.
hahas!.
but in between if vivian or me have to go to the toilet.
we will have to wear my shoe..

we played like a total of round up 7hrs !~ O.O
omg right?
hmm.. and i tink i only played for 3 rounds.
haha.
the rest of the time.
i played with my typing maniac by using kh's lappie.
hahas!.
then got like 453 . omg.
shld have score higher.
nvm.!. i gonna score higher nxt time.
royson lee. 你等着瞧~ =P
hahas!

so abt 7 plus we went to kovan-heartland mall to eat our dinner.
had kfc together.
i shared a bandito buddy meal with kh.
cannot finish my meal =x
but luckily there's so many of them to help me finish it.
after it. royson sent vivian to bus stop.
and we went to royson's hse for wat they call - poker time.

LOL~!
frankly.
its the first time i'd ever see such a scene,
whereby..
playing poker and blackjack with chips.
but eventually the chips means PUMPING!
lolols.
and according to them. mh had nv lose before.
due to the duno wat theory.
which is impressive.
cause after we be banker.
wa. the first few rounds .
we like ban-luck all the way la.
and i was like.. O.O
oh my gosh!
hahas!

but sadly .. in the end..
maybe cos of me.
like wat ks and they all say.
-ve + -ve = +ve.
so his luck was down..
and we lost to like 135 pumping where everybody won.
sorry mh x/
but dun worry bahs.
so we shall share the load and pay them back nxt time =P
hahas!. (:

then went home at abt 1am+++ le.
hais.
first time hearing my mom scolded me until so cham.
maybe cos i'd nv went out till so late before bahs.
felt super guilty.
bt cant blame anyone.
its me who didnt keep track of time. =(
sorry mummy!.
won't do it again x/

after waiting for like 11 days beside the thanks.
the first line u talked to me is "wanna play maple with me? "
i duno what's your intention as usual..
but maybe u had mistreat me bahs.
im not ur tat 5th ex
i dun play maple.
i thought u know it.
hais.
maybe to u.
im really nothing anymore.
or rather.
your tat 5th ex.
...

his bdae.

2009-07-07T00:07:00.002+08:00

now is 12.07..
smsed him at 12 sharp.
but duno whether my hp and my laptop clock are the right time mahs.
whatever it is..
happy bdae to you~

somehow i tink i nv said this to him before,
i loved his bdae. 7th july. 0707..
hahas!. nice no.
i rmb there's once.
i even asked him.
what was he doing on the 070707? =x.
hahas!.
and his replied was " studying.. ".
LOLs..

okayys~
that's the past now..
no pt reminiscing le bahs..

hais..
somehow..
i kinda concern whether he will even reply me or not.
besides the ask for present thingy..
frankly..
i nw can admit that.
i really duno him well.
cause sometimes his words i cant differentiate whether it meant truely from his heart mahs.
kinda hurting isnt it?~

hmm..
these few days .
i was thinking..
whether i shld jus heed the advice of most of my friends and take off this ring..
but this ring was with me..
since 12th jan.
still rmb the date.
hahas!
gg 6th mths le.
i know..
it might not seems long to some pple.
but to me.
131108~110509 and till now..
its not short either..
hais!
duno..

2nd july..

2009-07-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

hmm..
today was a "climax" day for me..
why did i call it a climax.
cause..
ever since i went poly..
my life is more of a staightline graph..
everyday busy handling with either hw or cca.
so..
fortunately, today managed to have a climax in the graph x/
as i kept myself quite busy and happy. XD

went to hg mall to meet the ISDs..
reached there just in time-12.30pm.
but they are already there chatting.
so shld i consider myself late ? =x.
i had cai fan. (duno how to call it in eng ) at the lvl 4 food court.
OMG larhs.
its super ex.
its like $6.
cant imagine it cost so ex.
then bought ice milo cos there no horlicks =x.
the cost is =.="
$1.80~!
kinda missed koufu at that pt of time.
at least at koufu gt my horlicks and its 1/2 the price~ =x
so chatted with the ISDs at the food court while we having lunch..
after it. they went over to my hse for home visit.
we practically was talking abt any random topics till like 4.30+.
then they have to go off to another member hse.
hahas.
but..
somehow i started to love SD alot. =)
they really give the confidence to continue my faith ..

after it.
went out to kovan to meet qiaoyi~
wahhs.
miss her lots sia!
went to have dinner tgt.
then pour each other sorrows =x
hais~!
but we did had alot of fun tgt.
really missed those days where we can meet up tgt (:

went to precious thoughts just now.
saw a gift.
its like. a kinda box to put COM inside.
outside craves. "together forever"
at that pt of time.
yeahs....
then i asked qiaoyi.
"how to call love when its only one sided love?"
she didnt answer me.
but i guess this answer is already answered .

2nd july today.
still pondering on the qns whether shld i buy it or not.

e learning week

2009-07-01T13:59:00.003+08:00

wahhs~
time passed so fast.
another week gone~
and..
its e learning week this week =D
somehow should thanks to H1N1 right ? =x
but still..
hope those who contracted it faster get well bahs~
and for those who didnt.
must really take care-

hmm..
so..
after 3 days of e learning.
how to say.
i find it alright la.
just that those offline assignment very troublesome. =/
cause if got any enquiry.
its so difficult to ask the mentors..
but still..
must try to do finish all ..
works are piling up now.
so must faster clear it =x
haha!

hmm.. today is ..
1st day of july.
6days more will be your bdae.
u asked me "where's ur bdae present"
i duno its a joke or wat.
can no longer differentiate it .
but its really show u havent change.
maybe i should have expected it.
going 2mths le.
is it too short for a person to reflect and change?
i duno...

long time no blog..

2009-06-15T18:49:00.002+08:00

wahhs~
its been a long time since i'd blogged.

but the reason i didnt blog for long.
is not cos i had no time.
but most of it. is cos.
i just duno how to start writing it.

And..
maybe somethings.
it just cant express in words.
its just so undescribeable bahhs..

tats why i didnt blog.i prefer to have it as memory in my brain (:

Hmm..

1week of holiday gone~

everyday networking training..

but it finally ends =D
Hurray~!
switched to software application le (:

hais.
sometimes i wonder..

how some people manage to endure not having any holiday for their 3 yrs poly life.

in a gd way..

i envy their endurance.

in a bad way..

i find it no life..

but that's my point of view =x

no other bad thinking about it.

guidance :
"unhappiness is not caused by adverse circumstances,
it is caused by our own negativity"

maybe its right.
sometimes think positively is good.
but i feel like asking.
if thinking positively can change the outcome?
i doubt so.

just had a "discussion" with someone.
"there is nothing fair in this world "
it is true.
i know this sentence since far way long ago.
but so what?.
does it mean that.
we cant do anything. then just accept the fact and continue with life?
its true tat we shld continue with life.
but without trying.
jus accept it, no voice out, continue with life .
is that the way we can only choose?

i know.
in wat NS.
whoever general or surgeon gives a command.
the remaining soldier jus have to accept it and do it. even how unhappy he or she is.
yeahs. thats the true.
but does it mean that he or she dont have the right to ask what did he or she done wrong? ( this doesnt include disobeying orders )
of cos the whoever surgeon or general have the right to dont answer his question.
BUT
there's nothing wrong in asking or voicing out right?
i jus dun understand this logic.

i think that everyone does somethings.
there will sure be a reason for doing it.
so.
he can dont tell u.
but it doesnt mean u can't even ask right?.
at least u tried to ask.
without even asking. u'd done nothing and continue.
is like following blindly isnt it?

for example ba.
one day.
u came back home from school.
ur parent ask u to commit suicide in a serious tone.
he might be in a bad mood. ( u duno )
but u can see he's serious.
so...
being a fillial child
are u going to commit suicide without even asking him why?

maybe this is a too extreme negative example.
but i jus put it for instance.
i jus dont get the logic ba.

furthermore.
complaining and voicing out is a different thing.
for a friend.
u voice out ur opinion is not call as complaining.
its call as pouring sorrow or even discussing.
for a person with higher ranking.
it can be complaining or voicing out.
it is depend on ur tone.
and of cos.
if he's just a friend tat is at a higher level.
it doesnt mean complaining at all.

[ the above is jus pouring out what i think ,
can be ignored ]

sick

2009-06-07T21:00:00.003+08:00

cougth + running nose + fever + sore throat + headache ..
is that the symptoms of swine flu or H1n1?
hope not. hahas!

hmm..
nowadays my life is like a maglev.
rushing and speeding everytime.
and when the motor is spoilt.
it will break down.
just like my physical strength..
it just break down even though my mental power tells me to continue go on..
and er hmm..
ta ta~
fever for 2 days..

hais.
nxt week is like a tests week for me.
programming test (monday)
jap oral test ( thursday )
prototype presentation ( thursday )
web application test ( thursday )
LOL.
GG.
zai rite?.
3 tests on one specific day..

i wonder who says that poly is slack?
is totally untrue larr.
so..
to those people who are reading my blog.
help me tell all your juniors or younger cousins tat.
" POLY LIFE ISNT SLACK."

hais.

2009-06-01T19:53:00.004+08:00

hais.
today i felt super guilty.
cause its like judgement day for both my ccas.
and the one i chose is tennis~

i think alot people had longed knew my choice.
just that they don't want it to happen.
neither i want it myself. =(
but i must admit i love ballroom alot .

felt super sorry to lyn, cat, vin, kt, yh and her bf.
like pangseh them like tat.
especially for vin n kt,
they two are somehow like my dance partner.
cause im quite weak at partnership dancing.
so both of them had been putting alot of effort in helping my partnership dance.
but i let both of them down by quitting br. =(
felt super bad now.
so many people trying to help me improve my dance.
when im here.
so 不争气.
because of my studies .
i gave up my dance passion.
sobs.

i also dunwan this to happen.
but somehow i just cant cope with my studies well.
plus.
with the stress of scholarship.
i cant but to give up my passion to let my studies get better. =(
sorry !

and
thanks for all the care and concern also.
i hope we can still hang out like last time even though im not in br le.
really nice meeting u all.

although im not there.
my dance passion will still be there with u all.
if there's another chance.
i just hope i can continue learn ballroom,
provided without all these studies stress.

STRONG.

2009-05-31T12:11:00.002+08:00

"your faith alone determine all these things
A sword will be useless in the hand of a coward"
that's the advice i had by Nyan Yin.

yeapps.
i should have be strong .
since i'd already chose this path,
and there's no way to turn around.

so.
yesterday i didnt went for BOTH tennis and ballroom =x
since i was sick.
but somehow.
when i didnt go for both.
i felt very relieved.
as though my burden is taken away from me.
maybe cause i didnt want to choose to go any of it.
cause i know.
if i go any of them, i will miss the other.
and i dunwan to choose one over another or rather miss any of them.

"su mi ma sen, wa ka li ma se n~"
thats the line i learnt from last week jap lesson.
it means sorry, im blurred.
i find it suits me.
im always blur.
nothing seems clear to me.
my paths, my choices.
hais.
but i know .
im all alone now.
have to be STRONG..

darkness

2009-05-29T22:28:00.003+08:00

me and li he at nebo (:

reflection:

depending on myself now.
no more RELIANCE.
i just have to be strong
and pull through it.

i'd stucked.
maybe from the start of everything.
i had been putting myself into a maze.
a totally different world from where i should be.
just like alice in the wonderland.
but she's happy.
im not.
she's strong.
im weak.

sometimes it made me think back.
am i suppose to be here?
i was being warned last time.
but i neglected it.
why can't i just raise a white flag
and get out of here asap.

i know i should be STRONG.
cause surrendering now doesn't help a thing.
im just confessing to other people,
im a loser
didnt i?

however.
having to force yourselves to adapt to a totally different world,
its already a kinda hardwork.
but when u knew that.
all your effort are nothing to people.
the kind of feeling is totally terrible.

captain's ball + ballroom

2009-05-28T00:16:00.002+08:00

hmm..
today was another stressed up day for me =x
woke up at 8.40+

lols!.
consider quite late le.
dun feel like coming to school derr.
super weak after chatting till 3+ last nite.
but bobian mahhs.
must come.
if not i will feel guilty =x

so..
after class.
we went to eat at north canteen.
chat abit till 3+
then went to sport hall for captain's ball competition ..

hmm.
saw clarence at there again =x
hahas!.
the whole event was fun.
although we didnt win at last.
but i can see our class spirit inside. =D
IS0902~!
we all already done our best (:
gambatei~!

the whole thing ended about 8pm.
then i went to mac to meet lyn. vin. and catherine =)
ate filet o fish. =x
then slack awhile.
went to meet up ki tat n his gf at atrium
then go to Block E there to practice dance ^^

its fun practicing dance with friends and seniors.
hahas!
duno why.
the passion for dance will seems to increase whenever i go for practice.
but duno is it a gd thing =x

then..
i learnt abit of waltz~!
then dance with vincent ~
woohoo =P
i love the dance lorr.
super romantic (:
how i wish he will be there to dance with me ~
hais.
false hope again .

reminiscing the past in the bus.
today i looked through one of my hp's images.
got one quote i came across .
one quote that i loved alot last time.
its written as this.
"LOVE isn't finding someone you can LIVE with..
its finding someone you CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT.."
haix.
without you, i doubt my heart can continue beat.
so..
even though you are no longer there.
but i will put your shadow in my heart forever.

stressed.

2009-05-26T09:30:00.005+08:00

Pizza hut~ !

Twins turtle Bags~ !

"Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time."
remember the day i asked you to search this song.?
did you hear it?

at ess IT lesson now =x
hais. x.x
this whole week super stressed.

monday - mock up presentation
tuesday - com skills project
thursday - jap test
friday - ess IT test

haix.
i remember everyone said poly is slack derr-
but if there's so many projects and tests in a week,
i cant define it as slack lorr.
=.="

misunderstood again =x
its so impossible ..
cant even imagine it will happen.
haix.

10.31~

lols!.

just bathe finished and came back from amk hub (:

went out with lyn today after lesson (:

walked from nyp to amk hub when its raining~

luckily i got bring my jacket to cover my head .

and she has a scarf to protect her =)

then..

ate pizza hut till about 6+

then bought my favourite turtle bag =D

hehex!

super happie.

we both managed to buy the same bag lehhs.

so next time can bring the same bag to sch le lorr =)

hahas!

after it.

went to arcade and play jubeat and drum for one round

and....

HOME SWEET HOME =D

bored.

2009-05-24T23:54:00.003+08:00

hahas!.
like 2 days nv post le.

so..
friday's ceremony was....
lols?
fantastic?.
all of us looked super diff. =x
hahas!
i keep kena suan by alot pple lehhhs.
just becos of my shoes =(
sobs.

but overall its super tiring but nice (:
then..

sat..
went for tennis at 8am.
learned all the backhand and forehand swing.
plus due to i missed the 1st session.
i had to stay till 11.30am.
wahhs!.
the weather super hot larr.
after it.
had lunched with QY. royson n KS at north canteen.
ate 2 cheese pratas.
then..
after it i cancelled away my appt
and went to QY's hse for 2nd round of tennis.

when we reached there.
saw royson's gf (:
hahas!.
then played tennis tgt.
after it.
lynette came. followed by kiat han and ming hong.
all xinmin except me n lyn.
wahhs!.
seems super extra.
but lucky im not the only extra there.
got lyn pei me wat =)
hahas!.

played till about 4pm +
then went home.
super tired sia.
muscle cramp all over.
then slept till 8pm.
rushed to funeral at 9pm.

hais.
sometimes death is really something u cant control.
why there's so many people out there committing suicide,
when there are people who really wanted to stay in earth longer had to die. =(
dont get the logic.
life and death is so unpredictable.

im willing to wait.
but do you know the reason im waiting?.
i doubt you know...

ceremony

2009-05-22T13:17:00.007+08:00

Royson and me (:. Took in the library =D

hahas!. do we look like hamster ?.. =P

Marilyn and me (: took during web app lesson =D

Tsuhaimi and me (: took while in the library waiting for ceremony today =D

hmm. it had been a few days since i last blogged.

so many things happened over the days.

tat lead to...

heartache + excitement + stressed + exhausted~

all the complicated mixture feelings.

nowadays my schedules more n more tights~

plus so many tests + projects coming in.

super stress larr.

practically no time to rest.

but luckily . there's so many people around me to keep me carry on =D

if not. i tink i gonna break down anytime.

but yupps..

whatever it is. i guess...

i still nid to carry on with lives.~

cant let down all the hopes people put on me.

anyway..

that day heard a song name: 爱情不能做比较

heard it before in somewhere else.

but started realising this song is on tuesday.

the song is super nice larr.

but what amazed me most is the lyrics lorr.

indeed larr. love is "incompareable"

duno got this word mahhs - means cant be compare.

the more u compare, the worst it had become.

hais.

started pondering about it again~

you'd left me with a deep scar~.

and now u wanted to amend it.

even if i can do it.

it maybe too hard to accept it ~

tiring~

2009-05-17T20:16:00.006+08:00

Marilyn and me (:. behind is YL. who came to kajiao us =P took during presentation workshop

YL and me. took while waiting cmaths test~

16.05.09

super tiring day for me =x

somehow.
i missed my sec sch life so much despite all the bad memories back then..

to me.
poly seems like...
everyday working sia.~
totally no rest.
including weekend. =.="

so..
ytd i woke up at 6.30am~
rushed to sch at about 8am to go for tennis.
learned some basic swinging of tennis racket
then i rushed to the ballroom audi with yihuan and her bf and another ger..~

...
lucky i did that.
cause unexpectedly.
the audi did not end at the time i expected.
just WARM UP.. it took about 2 hrs o.o

at first.
i thought they are suppose to audition us.
BUT...
they taught us salsa and cha cha.
its super tough larr.
but yupps.
i feel tat i'd done my best in learning.
by trying to ask the seniors to help me =x
so..
when the class end.
i didnt feel regret if i didnt get in.
cause at least i'd tried my best..
and..
GD NEWS..
all of us got in =D

however...
bad things are behind..
muscle cramp all over =.="
AHHHS~~

so..
i went home asap to rest..
but..
instead of 5hrs resting..
it becomes 5hrs of chatting =x
hahas!.
and..
i started chionging my project..
practically i used total of 7hrs to do a wireframe~
which means from 8pm to 3am ~
O.O
omg larr..
so..
saturday became my workday also~

17.05.09

another day for me~
went out with meiling to amk hub ~
long time nv go out with her le~
so took this oppourtunity to lian luo gan qing with her =P
what we do there..?
HMMMMM...
in a gd way : its called shopping..
bad way : its called preparing..
so..
in total~~
we spent 5hrs buying one pair of formal suits and heels =x
and finally went for dinner at hougang point~
hahas.~
reached home abt 8pm~
and here i m slacking~
10pm had to start and prepare my programming le~

somehow..

i started to dwell with the past again~

"if it's lost, will you try to get it back?

if u ever tried, maybe ending wont be like this?.

your love, is all i ever wanted"

heart started to get pain again~

u'd took my hand and saved me from the pain last time,

but now u left me with a deeper scar .

fickle

2009-05-16T00:34:00.004+08:00

okayys.
today was a stress day for me.
i felt myself is a super bad planner sia.
i really cmi in arranging my time well..

and.
i also a fickle person =X
for instance,
today i had two meet-ups.
one is 4pm.
another one is 7.30pm
but i end class at 11am.
so i was thinking to just go home straight after lunch then go for the 7.30pm meeting.

however,
when i reached home.
i changed my mind =.="
i know its bad to do tat.
so i rushed back sch at 3pm.
to see abit about dance lorr.

frankly.
thanks to today dance practice.
i wont regret knowing wat's true ballroom about.
really..
impression changed.
amazed =)
hahas.
thanks to someone, lyn, liping, yihuan and her bf =D

so..
now another big problem coming up.
hahas.
tmr 2 clubs clash..
tennis / ballroom audi.
i duno..
tennis is 10am.
ballroom audi is 9am.
i really duno wat to choose.
i love both.
really love.
but just duno which to choose.
hais.

so...
thinking..
thinking..
maybe just follow what i'd originally plan =)
even i cant get in.
i'd did my best isnt it (:

speechless.

2009-05-14T23:13:00.003+08:00

today was a super tiring day.
woke up at like 7.40am o.O
wahhs.
super late larr.
then left hse at 8.12am =.=

was thinking whether to take taxi at the moment.
then some thoughts came to my mind.
i was thinking..
wat yh said before.
try to switch buses see can be faster mahhs.
so...
i walked to my hse the bus stop.
then took 25.
reached amk about 8.35am.
then took mrt 2mins .
reached yck at 8.41am =P
hahas.
but one thing i realised..
driving vehicles also not gd.
especially in the morning =x.
cos..
people in the morning dun even care about the traffic light
just plainly..
all j-walk .
haha. then instead of WE letting the car to drive past.
is the car wait for the people =P
haha.
i saw it.
i was like o.O
haha. pro pro.

so after reaching sch.
went for lecture at SIDM.
for the first time.
and after all the advise + lecture from people who concerned about me.
i managed to focus and listen what scott jones is talking.
haha.

after it.
is jap.
hmm...
i was super stress larr.
didnt know there are going to have a jap test.
then even if i know.
i got a feeling i still cant get the hiragana well.

frankly larr.
think about it.
normal people took like at least 1 yr ++
to learn how to write and read their own mandrian well..
for instance.
i'd took about 1/2 yr to master han yu pin yin well in the case when we had chinese lessons almost everyday when we're pri 1..
so...
when we only had 2hrs of jap lessons once in a week.
how are they going to expect us to know hiragana well in 3 weeks time?.
wahhs..
we aren't superman / superwoman.
at least i dont find myself am. =x
so...
quite stressed out during jap lessons.
really thought of dropping this module at that moment.

after it...
its web app proj.
another stressed out module..
we were supposed to hand up our site map to joanna koh today..
but in total.
we submitted our sitemap 4times.
when other grp.
one time clear.
the reasons was...
1st time. too complicated.
2nd time. too simple.
3rd time. not in full details.
4th time. ..
is after the lesson.
and marilyn, cassie and me gave up.
just hand it up.
hahas!
cant be bothered le larr.
rejected so many times =.="

then we had a 1hr break before cmaths.
our whole class was at the lvl 6 window there studying.
some played ( like me ). some focusing & studying .. =x
after it.
its our cmaths test....
wahhhs...
super nervous that time.
im like. blank out on the 1st qns.
2nd qns careless.
3rd qns blur.
hahas!.
but after cooling down myself.
i managed to do it.
just that.
im rushing through..
hope there are no mistake.

but the main reason im chionging cos...
my hp was vibrating non stop larr.
i cant even focus with it lorr.
so after the test.
i quickly rushed down to meet them.
cant believe for like 1hr.
8missed call 1sms =x
i knew i shld have smsed them to tell them im late.
but =.=
hais.
anyway. sorry for letting u all wait =x
PAISEH to QY & SW =x.....

after it.
we went to white tangerine to eat dinner.
hmm..
i could clearly rmb last time .
when we hanged out at there tgt .
then all those crap we talking about.
but now..
all changed.

anyway..
thanks to QY =D
missya lots!!.
best friends forever~~

shld be our 6th mths.

2009-05-13T22:41:00.005+08:00

hmm.
today is the 13th may.
the day i hope to come last time.
but not now.
anyway. hope / wish normally wont come true i guess.

and.
whatever it is,
after days of thoughts.
i decided to carry on =D
lives still goes on~
no point dwelling about the past bahs.
its the advice by alot of people that concerned about me.
so im just gonna heed their advice (:

omg.
tmr cmaths test =(
stressed 0.0.
studying now.
but i suddenly rmb tat.
it had been days since i last post.
so just came back to blog awhile.

so..
things in mind now ~
1st) do WELL for ALL MY TESTS.
2nd) focus on my CCAs. ( get amap cca points ) =P
3rd) wait for 2yrs (:

2009-05-10T22:56:00.002+08:00

吃不能吃睡不能睡

沒有了你全都不對

我都學不會把愛敷衍

用笑容來把眼淚催眠

笑不能笑哭不敢哭

人不像人鬼不像鬼

朋友都說這不過失戀

但我卻連呼吸都膽怯

能不能不愛了因為愛太痛了

我痛得快死了卻無法把你忘了

能不能不愛了愛情它太痛了

我痛得快死了卻無法把愛割舍

我不能睡

吃不能吃睡不能睡沒有了你

全都不對我都學不會

把愛敷衍用笑容來把眼淚催眠

能不能不愛了因為愛太痛了

我痛得快死了卻無法把你忘了

能不能不愛了愛情它太痛了

我不能夠不能夠不愛了

能不能不愛了因為愛太痛了

我痛得快死了卻無法把你忘了

能不能不愛了愛情它太痛了

我不能夠不能夠不愛了

吃不能吃睡不能睡

last day.

2009-05-10T15:12:00.002+08:00

100509....
today will be one of the most impt day for me .
the day he gave up his position in my heart.
for days i hoping that 3 more days will be our sixth month.
but now i realised.
its all illusion.

heartache~.
frustrated~.
numb~.
every emotion clashed together.

maybe its all my fault that lead to this outcome.
just like karma.
tears rolled down my cheeks when i walked from amk to hougang.
1hr walk.
it may seems short.
but its the crucial period for me.
i will not deny the fact that u will still be in heart for a long period of time.
but it will never be like before.

silly me.

2009-05-06T21:34:00.004+08:00

over the past few days.
i thought through alot.
everyday seems like a torture to me.
sometimes i just wished i can be there emo-ing whole day just to get an answer out of everything.
but come to think abt it.
im not a mathematician.
and those are not like a maths problem that can be so easy to solve.
so no point thinking.
but what m i suppose to do?.
they are just stuck in my brain all the time =.=

anyway.
almost break down yesterday and abit today.
i was really depressed and stressed up.
but thanks to all the friends around me that cheer me up (:
you all are really very nice (:

im really trying my best not to think abt it and everything.
and i know.
some people might be finding me over sensitive.
and indeed.
i agree that some stuff i just shldnt care and be bothered abt it.
but to me,
they are also impt .
so i cant just dun care.
i know i being stubborn.
but think thats me ba..

hmm..
today went to a study skilled workship with yunheng, lyn and many more other friends.
from 3 to 6.30pm.
truely.
the whole talk was jus like mindchamps =.=
or rather. what they taught are 1/4 of wat mindchamps taught.
so i wasn't really listening to what they say.
practically talking crap with yunheng all along.
after it. went to koufu for dinner with lyn n yunheng (:
but somehow or another ks, qy and royson also came.
so we ate tgt at there..

after it. lyn yunheng n me walked to interchange.
but i was so full. that i didnt wanted to take a bus back.
so after waiting for lyn's bus.
i was supposed to walk to amk myself.
but end up yunheng followed.
hmm.
we practically from yck walked back to yck then walked to somewhere near chongboon market.
thanks for being there for me (:
you're really a nice friend.

did something super silly thing today.
feeling like bury my head into a hole lar.
but whatever it is.
i hope he didnt mind.
cause it just a casual saying.
doesnt mean anything special.

i think i will really regret if i dont know u all in my life.
u all really enlighten me alot (:
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!~

chinese version.

2009-05-05T00:45:00.004+08:00

当你所爱的人无法回应你的感情时,
那种刻苦铭心的痛,
又有多少人能明白?

当你看到伤害你的人能那么潇洒的对别人微笑,
而你只能远远的遥望着他,
那种愤怒及不平,
又有多少人能体会?

有时你可能会恨自己,
当时为何那么傻,
心里眼里只有他.
但,
唯一不能否认的事,
一旦爱上了一个人,
你可能已在不知不觉当中
做了许许多多的蠢事..

有时你可能会想,
如果当时你没有那么冲动,
事情可能就不会变成这样了.
但,
那种想要解开谎言的心理
是那么的强烈,
得使你无法控制自己的情绪..

如果事情可以从来
你是那么希望自己能够改变
来配合对方的要求
但扪心自问
那是一个那么奢侈的想法..

如果事情可以从来
你是那么希望自己当时没有那么傻
拆穿事情的真相
但试着去想想
如果你真的那么做
你会好过一点吗?..

23 day

2009-05-05T00:14:00.003+08:00

stressed up with everything i'd done.
to me.
its seems nothing are going in the right way.
my CCAs. my Academics. my Laptop. my Friendships.
nothing is done correctly.
i felt myself so stupid at times.
trying to make things perfect when I myself knew it's kinda impossible.

hoping everyone around me to be alright and perfect .
and when look at the reflection of the mirror.
me there.
tired and worn out.

sometimes i would think.
if tears really a good helper?.
if it really is. why didnt it help me feels better?.
so is it true it will help?.
i duno.

when i thought i get a clear picture of it.
its actually a fake vision~

friendship

2009-05-04T23:58:00.004+08:00

sometimes..
lying to yourselves is better than knowing the truths..
sometimes..
hurting others are not what you meant, but you just cant help it.

how i wish at the point of time when i know it,
i could be there to stop everything from happening.
but...
it just happened.

i know there's nothing i can do now.
although im not the victims neither the culprit.
but think im the center person.
if only i could be there to stop it..
if only..
if only..
...
...
i really dont want all these to happen.

i hope it would not affect our friendship.
but come to think about it
its quite impossible for now.
but whatever it is.
u two still my best friends forever.
i will always be there when u two need me .

22th day.

2009-05-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

today was a vexed day for me.
plainly rushing through all my homework and projects.
like every minutes was running so fast.

but what most stress me is my cca and lappie =(
i cant believe my BAOBEI lappie jus broke down today?.
hais.
i was so panic lar.
even skipped my dinner just to see what's wrong with it.
then called zq , yh all to help me.
but they still cant figure it out.
so think tmr i've jus nid to bring to the service center for repair.
sobs =(
i cant believe it sia.
just bought it for like 13 days. and it broke down =x
hais..

then the next most stress thing is the cca thing.
okays.
after ytd. i realised that joining tennis club but not in the sch team is = no cca point.
so...
to me.
its pretty obvious its hard to get into the school team.
so ..
i've just had to get another cca.
and when i'd decided to join premier .
all things came.

a kind stranger managed to help me .
and i took up the courage to call someone when i already thought its hopeless.
so..
begging for another chance is kinda hard to me.
but i really hope my wish will come true when i'd talking to her.
praying and wishing all day long.

but its until 11.38pm.
i received the bad news.
the closed audition is on the 16may 9am.
and my tennis is also on that day. but its 10am.
+ premier was also having its orientation at 9am.
means....
my 3 fav cca.
both happen to clash on the same day. =.=
and.
frankly.
wat m i suppose to do.
i didn't know~.

but whatever it is.
i'd hope i tried and never regret on my decision =x

21th day.

2009-05-03T01:31:00.002+08:00

okayys.
now is alr past 12am.
so my this post was suppose to write abt ytd. =x
..

hmm.
ytd~~
was a super tiring day.
can say the max point i can go ever since im out of sec sch.
last time in bowen.
can drama practice till very tired also sure OK.
but now..
haha. small things super tired le =x

so.
ytd woke up at 7am.
went to prepare bla bla bla.
and left hse at 7.30 for tennis orientation.
OMG.
realli leh.
i find tennis was a very fun sports.
the orientation is amazing.
i like best is the whacker part.
haha.
jus practically sabo pple.
but i always kena sabo. =x
ok. then i gave up.
jus be whacker can le =x.
dun mind whacking pple =P
haha!

erm. then tennis end at 1pm.
went to have lunch with roy, KS, QY, TC.
ate horfan from the malay store at koufu.
ok..
its taste....
cant say very gd. =x.
haha.

after it. TC and me immediately rush to vivo-sentosa.
for NYPSD orientation..
wahhs. its super tiring larr.
when i reached there.
they're preparing to play the last game - Captain Ball.
Hmm.
we managed to score 13 points.
highest among the other grp.
gd teamwork for the guys (:

later.
we did some "high" skit.
haha.
zu qiu huo~
haha!.
after it.
i went to vivo do some research on my webapp project.
then go home straight~

super tired~.
and slept from 6pm to 12am~
haha!.
wake up and saw there's still many pple online =P
haha.
so..
tats all bahhs~

19th day.

2009-05-01T22:05:00.002+08:00

okayys.
after hearing what my friend said.
i tink i shldnt be a so active blogger =x
haha.
so...
its like another 2 days since i last blogged.

erm.. today is 1st may ~
labour day & public holiday .
but it doesn't seems one to me.
cause i still doing my work like a other day =x
when it is suppose to rest.

hmm.
tink im getting sick too.
nowadays feel so tired unoccasionally.
so wake up 11+.
then went out at 2.30pm+ to meet my friends.
went to eat ice cream at icekimo at thomson road there.

after it.
went to sun plaza to meet him.
2nd time meet him since he went ns.
ok..
ate kfc cheese fries alone.
cause he dunwan eat.

bla bla bla.
had to filtered some stuff.
so tats all ba.
anyway.
http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=dowgOkqsk3pXqGKXzOV9OQ_3d_3d

pls go this web to do survey.
thanks!

17th day.

2009-04-29T18:30:00.007+08:00

kays.
at j8 coffee bean now~

today was a emo day for me.
whats so emo about.actualli..
there's 2 reasons.

1st : mummy going back today~
1pm flight =x.
today woke up late again =x
so for the first time she sent me to nyp (:
i was very happy.
but also sad that. she had to rush to changi airport after sending me.
so i was quite moody whole day =x

2nd: the web app proj.
left only 5 more days to presentation.
and im like slacking away.
i know i shldn't be like this.
but just cant help it =x
so yupps.
JIAY0UUS ba !!

hmm.
sorry to some of friends.
cause these few days...
i like undergoing emo-ness. =x
everything seems like crash to me.
which makes me freaked out.
so i might had like. blew on u all.
but whatever it is.
IM SORRY.
and thanks for being there for me ~
i will try to cheer up de

sometimes things just dont go in the way u want it to be
but what u can only do is to accept it.Y

16th day

2009-04-29T00:55:00.003+08:00

ok..
its been like 2days since i last blogged.
yupps.
yawning away now~

hmm. didnt happen any special thing today.
just that the c maths lecture was super =.=
its like.
she's practically rushing through the whole topics on binary and sets larr.
then i was there...
O.O okkayys-
i dont understand =.=

then during the com skills.
its was as funny as usual.
think its the most funny module among all.
but the bad news is that.
the air-con was super cold to endure it.
i wore my jacket and.
yet still feel cold larr. =x
+ cant adjust the temperature de.
hais.

hmm.
then after it.
mom fetched me from sch. then went home straight.
rest awhile then went shopping with her.
tmr ..
she's going back le :(
so yeah.
its best to spend more time with her.
hais.
but she told me.
mother's day she cant be in sg :(
i was like..
super sadd larr.
then she suggested me to go back there to pei her.
still considering whether i shld ma.
hais.
confused~

anyway . thats all. time for bed (:

how i wish you were there for me~ Y

14th day.

2009-04-26T22:54:00.001+08:00

hmm.
today was a super tired day.
webcamed chat with lyn till 5am like tat then slp.
so woke up at 11am today =x

was supposed to go to one of the religion meeting de. =x
but cos i nida do those hw.
and im too tired.
i skipped it. =x
so spent the whole afternoon at home revising thru my work.

bla bla .
till abt 8pm.
went out with my mom to amk hub.
took some time shopping with her.
then went to ntuc..

yupps.
so tats all.
jus finised packing my bag.
nites!

13th day.

2009-04-26T00:18:00.005+08:00

hmm.
first of all.
I MUST SPECIFY PROPERLY.
this is MY blog.
so those insulters and guailan pple.
PLS LEAVE HERE-
you might have the freedom to comment pple.
but you dun the right to ruin my blog by insulting.

ok.
then now my daily update news.

hmm.
due to ytd i drank some bits of vodka.
and a sip of whisky after i came back home.
wahhs.
i slept till 2pm today =x.
super late larr.
and headache.

then after it.
got prepared and went out to meet HIM.
almost 2 weeks nvr meet le.
since 13th april.
we met at the void deck of my hse.
he looked super weird lar . =x
first time see him botak.
chat for like 2hr + at the bench there.

we talked...
more abt what we did during the seprerated 13 days.
what we'd done.
and some of the major stuff that i had done in sch.
he also shared some of the things when he's inside.
then i saw his injury in his hands and legs.
he seem totally abused lar.!
at the point of time i saw those injury.
my hart like super pain larr. =x

although we can only meet up like..
once in every week.
but its more than anything.

it might be short. but its sweetY

12th day.

2009-04-24T23:30:00.006+08:00

just came back home =x

wahhs.
today was a super duper tiring day for me larr.
today onli have 2 periods of lesson - Essential IT.
till 11am.
but =x.
the 2hrs.
i practically was like.
chatting with huxley .
hahas!.

then after it.
had our lunch at koufu.
then go south canteen buy bubble tea.
after it. heading to edward hse for the bdae celebration.

we played a few games.
one of the games is a super funny game.
i kip laughing larr.
the game is like.
they give the word to the last person.
then they have to use actions to act out. and kip on pass to the first person.
until the first person.
she/he has to guess whats the word.
but realli funnie lar.
when they give a word which is very difficult.
then they nid to act it out.
hahas!.

filter.........
filter......

then we headed to edward's hse the k there to prepare for the surprise.
some take spray . some is the what pop thing. then mine is the blow thing. duno whats those name called.
we also got signed at those bdae cards and bdae cake.
its realli an awesome party.

played alot....

cried twice today-
emo the whole night .
5days le.
is there any better excuses u can give except for low batt?.
i rather u use all the batt and save those 1 or 2 sms.
jus to call me.
i dun mind u dun sms me everyday.
but at least. call me?.
nvm.
think the feeling of me waiting for a call whole night &
the emo-ness that kept me company for days.
cant even compared to a hp batt.
i duno.
today at kbox sang this song.
转身离开,分手说不出来~
海鸟跟鱼相爱,只是一场意外~
maybe we are realli like tis-

tears rolling over my cheeksY

11th day.

2009-04-23T20:57:00.003+08:00

today was the most tiring day of the week.
our lessons are like. from 9am to 6pm.
although there's an 2hrs break in between.
but it doesnt realli help much in relaxing yourselves.

so...
today was my first elective lesson-jap =x
ok. before the class. i was kinda expecting this modules to be interesting.
cause i wanted to learn jap since long ago.
but after the lesson. abit.... .. fun but tedious?
hahas. cause.
jap was realli...
not an easy language as what i tink.
i were like trying to understand what the teacher "sensei" was talking.
cause she's was like questioning us with jap.
and i was like O.O "huh? dont understand". =x
hahas.
but its still quite gd larr.
at least i've learnt something new (:
eager to learn more =D

then had the web app project lessons.
discussed with my grp abt the themes and what we shall do for the proj.
then rest for another hr.
went for C maths.

after it. its like. went out with lyn&yh .
went to amk nebo to eat our dinner.
yupps. but after dinner i quickly rushed back home after a phone called from home =x.
thats y here i m. blogging.
tink lyn&yh might be still shopping at amk ba =x.
duno?.
hahas.

~~4 days le.~~
~~i know im being demanding cos u dont have a choice when u're inside.~~
~~but...~~
~~u had not been calling me for 4days le?.~~
~~i duno what happen to u inside?~~
~~neither i've heard ur voice.~~
~~its always sms.~~
~~and those times where u can sms me.~~
~~i will be studying or busying doing stuff.~~
~~i miss u~~~
~~but if this continue.~~
~~how u expect me to do?.~~
~~drifting more n more apart~~~

enduring on~Y

10th day.

2009-04-22T21:34:00.004+08:00

hmm.
just finished doing C maths hw.

today was a short day =x.
lesson starts from 10am-1pm.
although onli 3periods,its like years to me =x.
did some html things then thats it.

after it.
its like club crawl time.
went with the class.
but halfway. the class like split up.
so went with yunheng & Lyn.
i was like. went around signing up alot of clubs =x
so total...
i signed up like 5 different booth.
FB,NYAA,ballroom dance,tennis&squash.
hmm. cause they say can trail first.
if u wanna back out. can de.
so i also duno. =x
then lyn got pei me signed up FB & ballroom dance.
then KS,royson& another guy got signed up tennis also =x

just feel like trying something special.
yupps. duno eh.
see first ba (:
tink thats all for today.

are we getting further apart?Y

17th day.

2009-04-22T12:01:00.007+08:00

hmm..
today was a quite stress day.

1st.
mummy going back today~
sobs.
thinking abt it makes me really moody =x.
hais.
for the first time.
she today fetched me to nyp in the morning.
just before she goes changi airport.
sobs.
and think she's now in the plane now.

2nd.
the project things.
left only 5days before the presentations.
and i was like still slacking.
im already trying to pace up like the other grps.
but its like.
hais.
just dont work out =(

stressed~~
thats all.

17th day.

2009-04-22T12:01:00.001+08:00

17th day.

2009-04-22T12:01:00.000+08:00

9th day.

2009-04-21T21:02:00.005+08:00

2nd day of sch-
so....
today was a better day than ytd (:
woke up at 6.45am to off my battery adapter for my lappie.
they said have to charge for like 10-12 hrs. so woke up at that time to off it. just nice.
hmm. went out of home early. so took the 8.05am bus to sch.

and..
leasson starts.
the first period was nothing. practically nothing.
cause there's not even a mentor/tutor came in to teach.
then from the second period onwards.
we have many lectures.
the first lectures was like. programming essentials.
erm. its bored =x
the lecturer was like. teaching those basic word meaning stuff.
eg. whats the diff btw data & info.
so.. what i did was. i didnt bothered
hahas!. and kept on chatting with royson.
lucky it was onli for 50mins.

after it . our class had lunch at kou fu.
sat with jeremy,jit yang, royson n jonathan.
and ate ban mian (:
hahas!
hmm. then we went to buy books.
bought the new discovery computers books that $29.50
wahhs. super ex. & HEAVY larr
but still ok larr.
there's always pple helping me carry =P
Hahas!

hmm. then we went for the next lecture abt computing maths.
wahhs!. its super fun (:
ok. must admit. the infront part was indeed very boring.
i'd almost fell asleep.

cause she was teaching like. real no. integer those. =x
but then.
we learnt BINARY!.
its realli fun.
i might be weird. but i feel tat its easier than differentiation& intergration =x
cos we jus handling 2 no. 1&0.

hmm. then. bla bla bla. another lesson of communication skills and thats it.
after the whole lesson .
hahas!
time to go out =D
went out with L&YH again (:
we went to ps to buy my laptop slim bag.
then shop around and see which nicer first then ate at xinwang.
i intro them to eat chesse baked rice (:
hahas!. its super nice ! (:
after the dinner. then we go buy the finalise laptop bag.
its like $23.90
much cheaper and nicer than ytd the fujitsu bag =x

hmm. went home abt 8+
yawn~!
super tired (:
lucky tmr having class at 10am.
hahas!. can slp 1hr more =xso thats all. (:

thinking of escapingY

changed.

2009-04-20T15:02:00.008+08:00

past is over.
present is complicated.
future is unpredictable.

once its left.
it will never be back again.
hoping for a change that will never come true.
and in the end.
its the opposite of what u expected.

" love will change to hatred "
think this quote many people heard before.
trying not to accept the realiability of this quote.

i'm just gonna treat myself better.
thats what instill in my brain now i guess.
but MAYBE it will make me feel better.
really alot better.
MAYBE.

8th day.

2009-04-20T15:02:00.006+08:00

wahhs. today is my first day of sch (:

hmm. how to say..

tink im gonna rate it as 3.5/5

why leh.

cause the last lesson - web application project modules are super boring =x

its like. she just practically go through whats in the guidebook,

which we can read it ourselves.

hm. but before it. it was alright.

i'd learnt alot of stuff in the lab lesson.

what scratch stuff. and thats the basic about programming.

then learned some command prompt from zq (:

wahhs!. he taught alot larr. my shi fu =D

so fun larr for command prompt. but jonathan say its the basic .

when behind it will get harder =x

sad. ):

but i will try to learn it (:

after it. we went for our that last web application project.

wahhs. our class like almost debating larr.

abt the grp thingy.

actualli i dunmind going to the grp. just that .

i scared i cant communicate well with them as i rarely talk to them =x

but we're still classmates wat (:

so shld be alright (:

but after all the talking/debates.

we decided to have lottery.

so i chosen 5. which means the grp will have. cassie. marilyn. me and chapman =x

sad. he's only guy. but ok larr.

im sure we wont left him out (:

so thats all for the lesson part.

then i rushed to buy laptop at the atrium =D

wahhs. super long queue larr.

queue for like 2hrs to buy 1 laptop =x

hmm. lyn, yunheng and jonathan got pei me wait n buy larr.

jus like. stand there pei me for 2hrs =D

they're so gd lorr (:

then.....

i bought the S6520NYP de laptop. its like 1.7kg =x

but i still find it heavy =x

hahas!. lyn was like. its already the lightest. hahas!.

ok. think my sense of weightness realli very lousy =x.

hahas!.

anyway. now im fixing my this new baobei lappy (:

hahas!.

so thats all =D

im getting used to the life now Y

7th day.

2009-04-19T21:32:00.008+08:00

hahas!. today is a FUN DAY (:

was supposed to meet yunheng at little india at 12pm de.
but both of us like. reached earlier =x
although he reached there faster than me. so .. too bad he had to wait.
hmm. brought my laptop along with me .
wahhs!. super heavy larr.
i tink got at least 3kg lor. even yunheng also finds it heavy. =x
but gd thing is. he helped me alot larr. kept on carrying it for me.
after we met there. we took bus 861 to bugis junction mcdonalds for lunch.
i ate mcspicy which i longed wanted to try on it.
wahhs. i must admit. its indeed spicy as it was called . =/
we like chatted along as we eat our lunch.
talked more about our sec sch life =)

then after it. we walked to sim lim square. which is just cross a road and reach. hahas!
erm. we were supposed to go there to buy my extra laptop battery.
so went up to lvl 5. and shop the whole lvl to see which shop got sell laptop battery.
hmm. went to total 3 shops.
1 shop is like. they do sell. but we nid to booked it on the web. then take abt 2 weeks to manufacture and sent to us and we went to check the price using yunheng's hp . its $113.
then the other 2 shop is already have stock today but is $175.
hmm. so i went to called my mom. then we decided dun buy today.

after it. we like. shop around lvl 4 n 3 to see the laptops.
then i knew something . i shld see what DDR3 or DDR2 for lappie. and whether got wat graphic cards those.
hahas!. took some brochure along.
after awhile. we were like sian le. so went out.
head to chinatown =P
hahas!. took bus 960 there.
quite near like few stops. then went the kbox there.
wahhs!.
thats like the best part of today.
i had like a music test from yunheng larr.
he chose alot of songs which titles i duno at all.
then when the song played. i was like '' OOHHH.. THIS SONG ARH..''
hahas!. so everytime he chose a song.
i kept tell him. i duno how sing. but when it played.
my reaction will be the same.
so practically. i knew alot of songs of what he chose lar. hahas! (:
about 90% i know although i duno the song name.
hahas!.
but there are still some songs-
he knows, i dont.
i know, he doesnt.
hahas! =P
so total. we sang from 2.40pm + till 7pm =x
then it $52.96 total for both of us. hahas!. rich sia us =x
after it. we went to hougang. hahas!.
came here to have our dinner at hougang mall lvl 4 kopitiam.
he ate wanton noodle i tink.
then i was using his lappie to go msn. =x
hahas!.
i was planning to skip my dinner de =x
but after his non stop persuation. i finally gave in and bought tou suan. but shared among us.
hahas!. tink he ate more than me =P
hahas!.
after it. we went to interchange. he took bus 74 home. and i walked home.
and here i m. blogging =x.
thats all (:

trust is very impt, so pls dont doubt my love Y

6th day.

2009-04-18T19:59:00.007+08:00

hmm.
nothing much today.
woke up at like 11.20am by my hp's alarm =x

msn awhile till like 12+ with yunheng and another friend.
both told me that my ex blogskin got malicious code
O.O make me tio stunned.
thats why i go changed my blog skin till this.
dunwan pple to tio virus mahhs =/
spent the like 11.20 to 12+ , 1hr to edit those html codes.
wahhs!. its like super luan larr.
then asked yun heng to help me with the song =x.
cos its like. i chose a song from imeem.
then paste it on the template. it will appear the whole imeem thing.
so i dunwan. and asked him for help =x
hahas!.

hmm. then abt 12+ .
prepared and get ready to go for NYPSD meeting. =x
hmm. 1mth once onli.
so must go =x. if not mummy sure nag me like mad.
erm. today's meeting was quite fun.
the ice breaking game was super funny. hahas!.
the game is like that.
we were suppose to take one card with some words like ''ok larr.'' and put it on our forehead, but we were not suppose to see what we have.
then the other people must try to provoke u say the word. if they succeeded means u tio one card. and the person with the most no. of cards will have forfeit.
i tio like once.
my card was like ''night''
cause someone asked.
whats the opposite of night. and i said ''day'',
then he say opposite lehh
and i replied. ''night'' and
oh oh. tio!. shldnt say the opposite word. hahas!
but lucky. i've learnt my lesson for the second round.

hmm. after it. we heard some of the guidance and sharing session from the seniors.
and end. hahas!
reached home about 5+ 6.
then started doing my blog.
went to edit so much abt the html.
the pictures for my profile
then blogskins title.
alot larr.
but i realised something.
although its tough to learn all these. but. when u finally managed to like. read and know what is it. its really very fun.
hahas!.
yupps. think thats all for today =x.

guidance : treat as though u gonna die tmr and live the best for today (:

without you, my life seems hollowY

5th day.

2009-04-17T11:55:00.012+08:00

cute rite?. this is the part where we duno what colour to put for its ear. hahas!

waiting for our mashimano to evolve =P

dinner! (:

TADA.!! final product!! hahas!!. our mashimano. evoluation of mashimaro! =P

END OF TODAY

hahas!. just came back from j8. (:

just now super happy. (:

went out with lyn n yun heng.

wahhs. we went to the what fishermen thing ate fish n co. there was like 3 types of fishes. so we decided to each take one to try out. hahas!. i took the what dory de. then yun heng took the cherry or what. and lyn took the other one. forgotten what name =x.

but its like. all agreed mine is the best (: hahas!

so next time when go there. i know what to eat le (:

spend about $17 each.

then we went to shop around j8. bought a lanyard for myself. with rabbit design at mini toons for about $3.40. so kawaii larr . =D

then we was like nothing better to do. so we started walking in circles. then we saw this!.

HAHAHAS..

the best part of today outing.

Tada. i will let the pictures do the jobs =x

REST TIME (HOME)

hmm. now i at my room (: hahas!
come back for like 15mins have to leave hse again.
just blog for awhile lorr.
hmm. came back to bathe n change to casual wear.
hahas!. wore formal go clarke quey so weird.
hmm. so yupps. thats all (:
come back then blog again =P

SLACKING TIME

hahas!. now at L603 classroom using yong liang's laptop (:
hehes. was supposed to use it to do presentations de. but yahhs. here i m. slacking (:
let marilyn, cassie and yongliang do the job =P
hahas! (:

xiang si ni lerr~ Y

4th day.

2009-04-16T21:38:00.005+08:00

One good thing about broke : u will find out who are your true friends. ( to a certain extent ) , cause maybe people just want u to accompany them?

thats one of my conclusion for today. hahas!

hmm. just reached home at abt 9.20pm. went out whole day again. it seems like there aren't one day im not going out yeh?. =x

but think it is good to hang out. then asking me to stay at home emo .

umm. so today went where. like afew places.

first is nyp ( sch ). went to buy lecture notes. its like. i bought 3 stacks of notes for like 7 modules. but lucky i didnt took french. so can save some money cause french nid to buy books. hahas!. so total cost is $15.70.

after it. went for lunch with the class at the south canteen. 1st time eating the food there. erm. frankly no comments. but the bubble tea. acceptable for mine larr.

then i split with the class. they went to amk hub to watch 17again which i wanted to watch de and went to find my friend to pei me go dental . but end up. i missed the appointment. caused.. i waited for this da xiao jie to get ready for like 1/2hr or more till missed it. then end up. went out with her and one np guy (hao) to cineleisure watched 17 again. which i can watch with my classmates. =x

hmm. i managed to fork up some cash from the left over money that was supposed to use it to buy books and paid 6dollars the movie tickets.

hmm. what can i say about the movie. one word i guess. : AWESOME?

hahas. zac efron was so shuai larr. the part where he walked out of his lamborghini yellow car. then wore his jacket . that part my eyes was like O.O so big lurh.. hahas =P

then. the part where he read out the letter which was made up on spot was super touching !. the da xiao jie cried ):

wahhs. first time see her crying sia. normally im the one who dropped tears. now her turns. hahas!.

then we went mac to eat. i didnt buy anything caused i already have negative value for my allowance today =x.

hmm. chatted quite alot at mac with da xiaojie and the np guy. we like. practically talked about np and some horror / ghost stories. hahas!.

then miracally da xiaojie was scared? hahas!. first time sia.

she's like always the one who suggested to go watch horror movie. but end up. when we started to talk abt it. she's like. scared. hahas!

so now i know her weak point le =P

hmm. after it. we walked and talked till dhoby gaut mrt and took back home.

she dropped down at kovan to find er hmm..

and i went to stop at hougang and walked home.

wahhs. the journey home is a hard time. keep on thinking about him. last time always he will call me when im walking home or alone . but just now. no calls no sms. i was like holding on to my hp. praying he will at least a sms come. but none.

then i called lynette to chat . hope she can seperate my attention.

and yupps. walked and chatted with her was interesting though. at least managed to talk some stuff.

hahas!

yupps and thats all i tink for today.

a fun day i can say. =x

trust and faith is what that keep it going,

love is what that keep it worthy.Y

3rd day.

2009-04-15T23:40:00.003+08:00

hmm. nothing much to say about today . just simply emo day for me.

alarm clock rang at about 10am. then started to snooze till 11.15am =x
too lazy to wake up .
met the other scholars at 12pm + at the bus stop and headed to basil house.
erm. then went for lunch at kfc with meiling, jonathan . followed by lynette who came late =x.
chatted quite alot about our sec sch life there. then went back to basil house.
hmm. his house arh. duno to rate it as big or small. but what i can say is. his house got piano!.
something that i longed for but dont have. played awhile of it and drums.
and. yupps. i realised yun heng is actually grade 8 for piano sia. wahhs-! pro ! but so paiseh lar. playing in front of a pro =/
after it went down to the K n pool room. hmm. played / see awhile of pool, basketball and sang K.
but actualli nothing much for today lar.
but i also realised =x.
yun heng knew quite alot of songs also. so next time can go sing K with him le . hehes =P

oh. another thing i must specify.
i didnt drink any alcohol today. guai rite. (:
see. i swear i wont. means i wont.

hais. today duno wat happen to me sia. like emo whole day.
nothing really fasinates my day lor.
dont really feel like singing or playing de.
just wanted to stare at somewhere and emo.
how i wish he can sms or call more =x.

missing him so much~Y

2nd day.

2009-04-14T22:31:00.005+08:00

Hmm. so. Today is like. 2nd day he was inside.
okays. quite a tiring and boring day for me.

lets say the boring part first.
think it's obvious.
and thats because he wasnt with me =x

then.
whats so tiring about.
let me think. should be the time i woke up bahs. wahhs! i woke up at 7am+ leh. Pro right. hais. didnt want to wake up de =x. but bobian mahs. lynette coming over to my house help me do this blog stuff. but thanks to her. my this new blog is almost done . with all the links . except the song. i wanted to have song sia!. but she also duno how to make it . Hmm. really thanks her alot for helping (:
then after she left. i met up with royson cause i didnt want to emo alone at home. so he go pei me.
erm. we just went library but its like so boring there. so we started calling people come to pei us.
meiling was so ON larhs. i ask her come asap . she really come quite fast. hahas!. then KS came also. so we went hg plaza lan shop tgt. not bad larh. went to play CS. wahhs!. i managed to kill them in some rounds lor. (: hahas!. see gers also not bad de ok.. =P
but they keep bully meiling sia. hahas!. then we went to eat dinner tgt. called edward to come meet us then we went to sengkang there play basketball =x.
hmm. 3 yrs nv touch ball le sia. kinda miss it. but yupps. the guys realli pro. then went back home abt 9pm .

but whatever it is. its realli very nice to have friends to pei me =x. thanks to lynette n the others larr.. they really pei me alot. if not i can imagine i at home emo liao. =x.

100% love for him Y

1st day =x

2009-04-13T21:47:00.000+08:00

Hmm.
kinda weird to blog. since i so long didnt do such stuff le. but think i gotta heed some of the advice from my friends and starts blogging to relieve my stress yeh (:

Today is the first day he went off. he woke up at 6am i think. yesterday promised him to woke him up at 5.45am de. but hais. i overslept till like 6.49am. so when the alarm clock rang. i quickly jumped up and sms him =x.
cant sent him off but at least pei him morally mahs.
then went out with some of my friends to keep me occupied so as not to miss him too much. but think it onli work till like 8.28pm when i split with them. and now . here i m. so miss him now larr =x.

Frankly. i think i have over estimated myself lor. i thought i could do it de. but maybe things are just not that easy as it seems bahs. =x
plus. 说到容易,做到难吧. hais. confussing. but whatever it is. think just have to endure bahs (:

test x.x

2009-04-10T04:26:00.000+08:00

wow. its been like a long time since i'd a personal blog =x
anyway. hope this blog wont dead.